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Any anxiety/depression sufferers here?

Do you suffer from anxiety/depression?

  • no

    Votes: 21 17.2%

  • yes

    Votes: 101 82.8%
  • Total voters
    122
Just wanted to say... If anyone ever needs someone to vent to, share something with, or just need someone to talk to at ANY time please feel free to send me a PM and I will gladly listen.

No one is ever alone! I do hope that everyone in this thread is doing well, but there are lots of usernames here that would love to help in anyway.
 
My doctor had to cancel today, so my meeting with her as been delayed until tomorrow. Kind of annoying, because I wanted to get this over with
 
Michaels Lover said:
I'm sure you will do just fine :yes: is this your first time talking to a doctor about it?
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This is my first time telling anyone about it.

I don't want to tell my friends and family for a couple of reasons

1. I don't want them to think I'm attention seeking
2. I don't want to put pressure on them/make them worry
 
analogue said:
This is my first time telling anyone about it.

I don't want to tell my friends and family for a couple of reasons

1. I don't want them to think I'm attention seeking
2. I don't want to put pressure on them/make them worry
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Aw, too bad the doctor cancelled!! I'm sure you wanted to get it over with.
Good luck tomorrow.
 
analogue said:
This is my first time telling anyone about it.

I don't want to tell my friends and family for a couple of reasons

1. I don't want them to think I'm attention seeking
2. I don't want to put pressure on them/make them worry
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Maybe the doctor could show you that this mightn't be the case, and your family and friends will all be very approachable and understanding. Hopefully you will get seen to tomorrow and you will be able to have a better idea of what's going on.

Thumbs up man.
 
analogue said:
This is my first time telling anyone about it.

I don't want to tell my friends and family for a couple of reasons

1. I don't want them to think I'm attention seeking
2. I don't want to put pressure on them/make them worry
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I totally can understand your 2nd reason. this was the same reason I didn't tell anyone about it, last year. like I said earlier in that post, I thought I could handle it myself. and for that, I didn't feel there was a reason to worry anyone. but then when I finally told my mom, at the breaking point, she said she so wished I would have told her sooner. she felt so helpless and guilty, that I've been going around with this inside of me for so long, and she didn't pick up on it. mind you, it wasn't her fault at all, as I was very very good at hiding it. NO ONE had a clue. but anyway, I realized what a big mistake I'd made by not telling her sooner...
so I think if there's someone in your life you feel you can tell it to, I definitely think you should. wouldn't you want to know it if one of your loved ones was struggling with something? wouldn't you rather know it and worry, than not knowing it at all? I know I would. of course you would worry, and they will too if you tell them, but that's just a part of being loved...
 
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Just got back now, and the doctor referred me to a specialist. She told me that she didn't want to put me on any medication right away (Which is understandable) and to go back and see her in a months time, and if things with the specialist doesn't work out she'll then discuss medication options with me.
 
Glad to see that you went and talked to a doctor. I think that put your mind at ease, if only for a bit. I hope it works out for you, seeing a specialist and talking about your problems. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

Concerning your other thoughts, I am of the opinion that you should confide in someone in your family. If you are close to your siblings (if any) or your parents. As Michaels Lover said, they would rather know about this. I think they would show understanding and would support you (it would also mean a lot to them to see that you trust them enough to confide in them...my 2 cents on it ;-))
 
I suffer from anxiety and a few other related things. Last year I started taking pills and it got better! However, my doctor recommended me seeking a psychotherapist as well because she believes I should talk to someone about it.

Ironically, things got better after Michael passed away - I managed to pass entrace exams for the school I wanted to go to. My grades improved fantastically and I found great friends at the new school.

I believe that although Michael is not physically with us, his spirit still lives here. A few days ago, I prayed to God to connect me to MJ. That night, I had a dream where he shortly appeared and I was in an empowering position. It gave me strength. I realised I should continue doing what I do.
 
innuendo141 said:
Just wanted to say... If anyone ever needs someone to vent to, share something with, or just need someone to talk to at ANY time please feel free to send me a PM and I will gladly listen.

No one is ever alone! I do hope that everyone in this thread is doing well, but there are lots of usernames here that would love to help in anyway.
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x2 count on me to iam a very good listener.

Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up.
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Ecclesiastes 4:9

I heard that pets could help dealing wiht this.
 
FullLipsDotNose said:
I suffer from anxiety and a few other related things. Last year I started taking pills and it got better! However, my doctor recommended me seeking a psychotherapist as well because she believes I should talk to someone about it.

Ironically, things got better after Michael passed away - I managed to pass entrace exams for the school I wanted to go to. My grades improved fantastically and I found great friends at the new school.

I believe that although Michael is not physically with us, his spirit still lives here. A few days ago, I prayed to God to connect me to MJ. That night, I had a dream where he shortly appeared and I was in an empowering position. It gave me strength. I realised I should continue doing what I do.
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I'm happy to read this and glad that things have been looking brighter for you. Well done on your exams, grades and everything! I hope it stays that way for you.
 
analogue said:
Just got back now, and the doctor referred me to a specialist. She told me that she didn't want to put me on any medication right away (Which is understandable) and to go back and see her in a months time, and if things with the specialist doesn't work out she'll then discuss medication options with me.
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Happy to see that your first steps weren't an ordeal. Glad you are setting yourself on the right path and hopefully you will find yourself having an easy month and that the specialist works out. Maybe speaking out loud to someone that's interacting with you could be the exact thing you need. I hope it all goes well for you and looking forward to hearing about and and all improvements you find in yourself.
 
Feeling like a shit tonight. Crying like a baby. Prescribed high dose of pills doesn't help, it seems. I don't know what to do. I'm so desperate and can't even listen to Michael's songs as I feel guilty about it.
 
* hugs* i understand how u feel with feeling guilty when listening to mj i get like that too and not just mj music- all music i like really.


Its ok to feel like that and normal to be like that when suffering with depression most sufferes feel that way alot of the time .

Try and do somethin that will keep your mind occupied and i know its easier said than done but it does help. Read a book or watch your favorite movie , it always helps me :) . I like to do those adult colouring books
 
I think y´all are very brave.
Better days will come and bads too like a rollercoster for all till The Son of Man returns.

I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.
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you are not alone.
keep the faith.
 
8701girl said:
* hugs* i understand how u feel with feeling guilty when listening to mj i get like that too and not just mj music- all music i like really.


Its ok to feel like that and normal to be like that when suffering with depression most sufferes feel that way alot of the time .

Try and do somethin that will keep your mind occupied and i know its easier said than done but it does help. Read a book or watch your favorite movie , it always helps me :) . I like to do those adult colouring books
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I agree with you with the coloring. That does help me as well sometimes. I'm glad I have a whole bunch of those coloring apps both on my iPad mini 3 and my Kindle Fire hd. Even though I am still suffering from major depression. Listening and watching Michael is something I am forced to except I will never be able to do again. At least not until I hear about that evil monster's death in the news. Or on here. Only then maybe I can finally slowly start going back and start listening and watching him again. Until then I don't even like being in my MJ sites for very long anymore. What is the point when there is nothing really to look forward to in the MJ world anymore.:( At least to me there isn't. I still so badly miss the days when I used to devote my whole entire life to Michael. He was my total obsession when we still had him. Now that obsession belongs to Shahrukh Khan now. I know it is my depression that is making me say this. But I totally regret of ever becoming a MJ fan in the first place. It still hurts beyond past hell of going in to the computer room closet. When ever I need to go in there for something. And see on the shelves most of my MJ video collection that I had either bought or taped over the years. Back when we still had him I had this major obsession of taping anything MJ related on tv. Good or bad it didn't matter to me. If it is about MJ I had to tape it. You be surprise of just how many news stories I had taped about Michael over the years. Especially all the controversy over Michael making TDCAU videos. And just think how badly I want to see one of those MJ video tapes. Most especially those home movies of his that I had taped. Or one of the concerts I had gotten from Ebay. This was back when we still had him. And know I just can't because it could bring on one of my panic attacks again. Something I would never have thought I would have when it came to him. I used to have panic attacks when we still had him. But that was only with my phobia of bees. It even upsets me to no end of just how badly I hate seeing people on tv that had once knew him. Cause it just not fair that they got to know him and I didn't. And that was always been my most biggest dream ever was to meet him one day. I should have known that I was living in a fantasy world. And I also hate hearing stories about people came back from seeing Heaven. When we still had him I used to love to hear those kind of stories. Even though I had consider myself an atheist at the time. I am now a Christian. But yet those stories had fascinated me when we still had him. But now when I hear them they just really upset me. Because I don't find it fair that it happen to them. And it didn't happen to Michael. Because if it did we will still have him now. And I will still be the obsessive MJ fan that I always have been back when we still had him. But other than that I am fine. Well about as fine as a major depression sufferer would be. It is still very rare for me to have a good day.:( And I still don't know what it is like to be really happy anymore. But at least I have my Bollywood, astronomy, and my video and computer games to help me cope as much as possible with it.
 
Hello everyone:wub:

Felt like sharing this 'experience' would 'benefit' you guys. I hope it would somehow 'ease' your anxiety like it did to me. :blush:

I always had trouble with 'change' . It just causes 'anxiety' in me really to the point that it like 'shuts down' my system. :blink:

So, I recently 'discovered' a neat trick that 'reliefs' me from that 'state of shock' if I'm faced with a 'change'.

Okay, Imagine... You have to move flat. So that means, NEW place, NEW neighbours even NEW neighbourhood. :eek:

:unsure: Indeed!

Now, what is the neat trick?

Simply just 'envision' the change... Imagine you are already living there. Imagine you're happy there! Plan stuff you're gonna do there! Envision how the rooms look like and just dream about it.

Seems 'easy' isn't it?

Well, it worked for me though. Once, I set foot into the place (houseviewing) I 'felt' like I've been there. I was exactly running around the place already though I've only been there in 'dreams' :blush: and so I didn't feel one 'ounce' of anxiety that moment.

It was a 'relief' for me as I usually get 'stuck' in my 'fight or flight' thingy when I'm 'dropped' in a new place. :blush:

Take care :wub:
 
MJsBollywoodGirl7 said:
I agree with you with the coloring. That does help me as well sometimes. I'm glad I have a whole bunch of those coloring apps both on my iPad mini 3 and my Kindle Fire hd. Even though I am still suffering from major depression. Listening and watching Michael is something I am forced to except I will never be able to do again. At least not until I hear about that evil monster's death in the news. Or on here. Only then maybe I can finally slowly start going back and start listening and watching him again. Until then I don't even like being in my MJ sites for very long anymore. What is the point when there is nothing really to look forward to in the MJ world anymore.:( At least to me there isn't. I still so badly miss the days when I used to devote my whole entire life to Michael. He was my total obsession when we still had him. Now that obsession belongs to Shahrukh Khan now. I know it is my depression that is making me say this. But I totally regret of ever becoming a MJ fan in the first place. It still hurts beyond past hell of going in to the computer room closet. When ever I need to go in there for something. And see on the shelves most of my MJ video collection that I had either bought or taped over the years. Back when we still had him I had this major obsession of taping anything MJ related on tv. Good or bad it didn't matter to me. If it is about MJ I had to tape it. You be surprise of just how many news stories I had taped about Michael over the years. Especially all the controversy over Michael making TDCAU videos. And just think how badly I want to see one of those MJ video tapes. Most especially those home movies of his that I had taped. Or one of the concerts I had gotten from Ebay. This was back when we still had him. And know I just can't because it could bring on one of my panic attacks again. Something I would never have thought I would have when it came to him. I used to have panic attacks when we still had him. But that was only with my phobia of bees. It even upsets me to no end of just how badly I hate seeing people on tv that had once knew him. Cause it just not fair that they got to know him and I didn't. And that was always been my most biggest dream ever was to meet him one day. I should have known that I was living in a fantasy world. And I also hate hearing stories about people came back from seeing Heaven. When we still had him I used to love to hear those kind of stories. Even though I had consider myself an atheist at the time. I am now a Christian. But yet those stories had fascinated me when we still had him. But now when I hear them they just really upset me. Because I don't find it fair that it happen to them. And it didn't happen to Michael. Because if it did we will still have him now. And I will still be the obsessive MJ fan that I always have been back when we still had him. But other than that I am fine. Well about as fine as a major depression sufferer would be. It is still very rare for me to have a good day.:( And I still don't know what it is like to be really happy anymore. But at least I have my Bollywood, astronomy, and my video and computer games to help me cope as much as possible with it.
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I used to get like that with Michael I just had to tape nearly everything that contained Michael but for me I was more into his music videos & interviews . I brought magazines with mj, videos with mj posters of him , books about him or by him u name it I got it and I miss those days so very much. I wish I could turn back time and relive those days as that was when I was the most happiest and now I feel, everything feels empty and I can't grasp how terrible it feels but I just remember Michael is in heaven watching over me (..well I hope he is..lol) watching over all his fans and that alone makes me smile . Also the fact that he is finally at peace gives me a little sense of peace and I am grateful for that
 
currently home on weekend from the mental hospital where I got admitted tuesday, due to my schizophrenia escalated, I got bad symptoms
AND these "anxiety attacks" which I've never ever had before in my life, came all of the sudden out of the blue. monday night I was sleeping and I woke up in the middle of the night being angst in a way I have never experienced before
I am so happy to be home, have to go back to hospital on monday, so I'm gonna enjoy this weekend at home :dance:
 
Michaels Lover said:
currently home on weekend from the mental hospital where I got admitted tuesday, due to my schizophrenia escalated, I got bad symptoms
AND these "anxiety attacks" which I've never ever had before in my life, came all of the sudden out of the blue. monday night I was sleeping and I woke up in the middle of the night being angst in a way I have never experienced before
I am so happy to be home, have to go back to hospital on monday, so I'm gonna enjoy this weekend at home :dance:
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:hug: I've had some anxiety attacks in the past. They can be very frustrating, but, at least for me, they always go away. That hope saved me.

I also tried to be around other people so that I wouldn't concentrate on my anxiety.
 
FullLipsDotNose said:
:hug: I've had some anxiety attacks in the past. They can be very frustrating, but, at least for me, they always go away. That hope saved me.

I also tried to be around other people so that I wouldn't concentrate on my anxiety.
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it's still new to me since I've never had it before, but I've found that it also helps when I'm with other people, because I tend to get more angst when I'm alone. especially with the schizophrenia symptoms (hallucinations) on top of it. those alone are scary as hell
 
Michaels Lover said:
it's still new to me since I've never had it before, but I've found that it also helps when I'm with other people, because I tend to get more angst when I'm alone. especially with the schizophrenia symptoms (hallucinations) on top of it. those alone are scary as hell
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I was also frightened at first. I would go crazy, leave the house and wander around the village just to avoid the feeling. Sometimes it helped, sometimes not. I thought I was going mad forever. Then I somewhat got used to it and just let it pass. When I've taken medication for some time, it finally got away. I didn't have hallucinations, it was just me forcing myself into things I didn't wanna do. I felt I was trapped within myself.
 
Hey ! I just wanted to say, you're all really strong !
I'm in depression since years now and I have a lot of anxiety attacks, it happens really often so I know how much it can feel bad ...
We got to fight in life, and sometimes it can be hard but everything will be okay someday, it's just a matter of time. That's what everyone said to me at least.
Keep fighting everyone, and if anybody needs help and is alone someday, I'm here :better:
 
FullLipsDotNose said:
I was also frightened at first. I would go crazy, leave the house and wander around the village just to avoid the feeling. Sometimes it helped, sometimes not. I thought I was going mad forever. Then I somewhat got used to it and just let it pass. When I've taken medication for some time, it finally got away. I didn't have hallucinations, it was just me forcing myself into things I didn't wanna do. I felt I was trapped within myself.
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well, the hallucinations are schizophrenia symptoms, nothing to do with the anxiety attacks. so that's probably why you didn't have them
 
Michaels Lover said:
currently home on weekend from the mental hospital where I got admitted tuesday, due to my schizophrenia escalated, I got bad symptoms
AND these "anxiety attacks" which I've never ever had before in my life, came all of the sudden out of the blue. monday night I was sleeping and I woke up in the middle of the night being angst in a way I have never experienced before
I am so happy to be home, have to go back to hospital on monday, so I'm gonna enjoy this weekend at home :dance:
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They actually let u go home during the weekend????
I thought that wasn't allowed gosh i wish it was at the mental ward i stayed in a few years back
 
8701girl said:
They actually let u go home during the weekend????
I thought that wasn't allowed gosh i wish it was at the mental ward i stayed in a few years back
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oh yeah, patients who are well enough to do it, are very much expected to go home on weekends. of course you don't have to stay home all weekend if you can't handle it, you can always come back when you want. this is the open ward, and you have a lot of freedom. you are expected to participate, as much as you possible can handle, in activities (for patients), but also to go out on your own. like going for a walk or going to the store etc. or go home for maybe a couple hours and then come back. whatever you feel like doing outside the hospital
I'm going home on weekend again tomorrow. yay!
 
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