I feel the same Lorraine. I feel like I NEED TO BE THERE!!! I wasn't in Santa Maria during the trial and that has been so difficult to live with during all these years.
And now it's the last time we can show our love and support for Michael and it's more important than any concert, any public appearance....and I can't be there.
And that thought is killing me. It makes it TWO important times when I was not there, and I feel like I have completely failed as a fan.
I feel I NEED TO BE THERE to say goodbye to Michael....but I have no idea how I could ever get such a huge amount of money together in such short notice. And not only that, I have no idea where I could stay and how I could get to Neverland and back...even though I guess those could be solved somehow...but I'd need money for that also. And no matter how I try to twist it...I can't find a way to come up with 3000 dollars by the end of the week (flights are over 2000 dollars at the moment)...I so wish I could be there to say goodbye, but I just can't find a way...
I can only hope that at least on July 13th fans will gather and hold a memorial for Michael at the O2 so that I can at least SOME WAY say goodbye.
Michael I am so deeply sorry and it is breaing my heart that I can't be there to say goodbye.....I wish I could be there and I know not being there will haunt me for the rest of my life. Please forgive me and please know I WILL be there in SPIRIT. I will miss you SO MUCH....more than words can ever be able to express...and I will love you....FOR ALL TIME. Sleep well, dear Michael, and I will see you when my time comes. Until then...you will always be in my heart. I love you from the bottom of my heart!!!!