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tomorrow is tuesday i have to go and see the grovment about my spicail needs i have cause the grovement whats to take to me about my learning disablity i have and see they can get me more money for my needs and for my health i have :yes:

so wish me lucky :)

i'm so angry with grovement cause he doesn't give people eho have learning disablility so that's i have to go with my mom to see what they can do for me :) :yes:
 
ooh will everything what well

the person is woman and she was very nices person and she say to me that don't worrying you don't have to do anything let your mom do all the work you just stay back and listen and we just laught
i get more money this year i can get anything what but some stuff but is for my health and speacil foods i need and troveling to the doctor :yes: the grovemnt pay for the doctor and parking too :yes: that's cool

i maybe get job at unvistay waterloo :yes: is that cool :yes: (sorry about my spell)
 
Hi Rockstar. I'm glad everything went well for you! U are a pleasure to have around. U are just precious. :)
 
thanks mjtributepage

everything what will i get more money this year and i'm allow to get anything i what in my needs i need to get

do you have disablility mjtributepage
 
my life is not good i have alot of health problems and it'll not leave it'll live with me forever on, on, on,

o.k is sad too that i'm slow too make me live easy too :lol: my life is not easy is very sad life i have

i don't understand why good made me who i'm who'll
 
i don't understand in this world why people have to be so mean in this world cause we're slow cause we're different, are we emery of this world, in my whole life have have ben pick on, call names, when i was in high school i got scarying letter from someone who whats to kill me cause they told me i'm not allow to be in this world and they told that to my friends too :cry: and my family too they pick on me, they hurt my feelings, they tell me that i don't understand and stupid :cry: i don't understand why in this world what to something to me like this :cry: my life is not the some like everybody you have to understand that my life is different and nobody doesn't believe in me, i'm very deep hurt and i'm very upset and angry about ppls in this website you have to understand that you don't have to be so angry at me cause i send news on this website or other threads you have to understand life is not about smart is about love and helping in this world i love all the ppls who is not nices to me i need sorry from you cause you hurt my heart :cry: :cry: i don't like people who don't treat people who is different and slow in this world i'm very hurt and angry :) :mat:
 
Aww, dont worry about these people, Emilia, you're a good girl and some people are dumb enough not to see it....dont worry about! Its a pleasure to have u here with us, Im sure Michael would agree, you're an example of strength and love!
God bless you :flowers:
 
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i don't understand in this world why people have to be so mean in this world cause we're slow cause we're different, are we emery of this world, in my whole life have have ben pick on, call names, when i was in high school i got scarying letter from someone who whats to kill me cause they told me i'm not allow to be in this world and they told that to my friends too :cry: and my family too they pick on me, they hurt my feelings, they tell me that i don't understand and stupid :cry: i don't understand why in this world what to something to me like this :cry: my life is not the some like everybody you have to understand that my life is different and nobody doesn't believe in me, i'm very deep hurt and i'm very upset and angry about ppls in this website you have to understand that you don't have to be so angry at me cause i send news on this website or other threads you have to understand life is not about smart is about love and helping in this world i love all the ppls who is not nices to me i need sorry from you cause you hurt my heart :cry: :cry: i don't like people who don't treat people who is different and slow in this world i'm very hurt and angry :) :mat:
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hun ignore them dont let them see they can get to you cuz that's what they want

:better::better:
 
thanks Telha :hug: thanks MichaelJacksonAdmirer :hug:

is hard to ignore people who is mean and don't understand :yes:
 
do you think i should send email to Ellen show about me and be on her show to bring my dream come true? just asking :)
 
i don't understand why people who i have learning disablility and people can be mean to us and we can't say anything to them or we get in trouble i don't understand it, why we're the problems in this world god made us different cause he whats us to learn them who we're in this world of life i don't understand it are life is different and nobody doesn't care of us at all they think we're stupid i hate it we do understand in slow way and different way you just have to understand that who we're in this world

so stop picking on us and blameing everything on us o.k :yes: i don't understand why me :yes: :cry:
 
rockstar, I understand. I have epilepsy, too, ever since I was just a small child like 3 or 4, and I am 30 years old now and I still have seizures. I have to take lots of meds everyday. People get scared or freaked out when they see me during my spells and it makes me embarrassed. I, too, can't stop writing songs or singing. It's like a bubble that bursts inside of me, you know? One of my daughters has multiple developmental and learning disabilities because of extensive brain damage in the womb; she is 15 and very slow but wow she is quite an artist. The girl can't read or write but she sure can draw! Everyone loves her work. I also have a 10 year old who has some type of high functioning autism or Asperger's or something, we're gonna get her tested next month to see what the problems are but she is very brilliant (with the exception of numbers, at least in the traditional sense), and is quite the musician. She teaches herself the piano and violin. She also memorizes and recites entire books, sometimes reciting two books at the same time. But she is highly sensitive to noises and emotions and has a hard time paying attention. So our home has LOTS of special needs, but also LOTS of creative talent! Life is not easy, and it is hard, and it can be very sad, but our outlet is our artistic and musical passions and the knowledge that yes, there are people out there who understand and have been in my shoes!
 
I understand about the hurt and pain, of course, too. Middle school and high school, although they were years and years and years ago, the hurt is still fresh in my mind. They called me terrible names, tried to hurt me, wouldn't be friends with me, and everything. It was the names that was the most painful. I can't help that I have this problem (and photophobia, too, where I am sensitive to light), but people, and even doctors, sometimes say things to me as though it were my fault, or whatever they want to say. People say mean things, mostly out of ignorance, and although it hurts us, we have to be patient and forgiving of that, and inform them of the things we have to deal with that most people don't. When there are things that aren't quite right in the brain and/or the nervous system, it's difficult for other people to really understand because it isn't physically painful. Or maybe it is, maybe it feels physically different from other people, but I don't know it because I have lived with it all my life so I know nothing else. For us, the world is different. The fact is, God did make us. He made our eternal souls. He formed us special physically and mentally, and gave us a strength that only others who suffer from disabilities and special needs understand. He blessed our parents with us, because through us He teaches them a special kind of love, patience, and strength. It is through the strength He has gifted us with, and the other gifts He has given us to compensate for our losses, that He helps us overcome, and be a blessing to this world. Take a look through history and you will find that many of those who have helped shape our world had learning disabilities or other some such problem - but in fact, they turned out to be geniuses, remembered through the centuries/decades. Whether that's academic brilliance, political brilliance, or creative brilliance, when God compensates, He does an outstanding job! So, "why me?" Because He has a plan for your life and mine, and my daughters' lives, to be an influence in this physical life, and blessing in the spiritual life. Am I making sense? I don't know who I'm speaking to who understands it all this way - because there are simply not adequate words to describe it all.

Rockstar, I hope this helps encourage you. I know you're going through a tough time, and it is these times that it all seems like we want it to just be over and done with and out of this life altogether. But don't give up. In time you'll get to see things a bit differently, and you'll have your hundreds of songs, and hopefully be up there on a stage singing, blessing others with your God-given talents, showing an overcoming spirit that can encourage others who may be in despair.
 
WOW mjroxworld :) :hug: thank you sharing your story to me and i feel sorry about about you and your daughters :hug:

just let you know that i don't have epilepsy anymore :no: i'm free i don't get no more shaking on the floor at all or stop breathe at all i'm free no more epilepsy :yes: i'm free woman know from it i don't have it secen i was 10 so i'm free from it cause when i was little they give me some specail meds too and specail food deit too :yes:

but know i have other health problems i was sick alot in 2005 cause my tummy was hurtting me like hell and then the doctor find out that i have infection in my tummy (sorry about my spell) and my gall bandle have to remove and they find out i had more then million stones inside of me :yes: the doctor say to me that i was very sick person so have to stay in hostoy alot and i miss my first concert to go too cause i was too sick too go i was upset cause i will what to go to that concert :yes: ooh will i miss it :yes: :cry: put i got will but in one year later i was feeling sick again and so my other doctor say to me that do more test on me so i did they put this thing in my bum it hurt like hell i was cryying my heart out and my doctor that they find out that i have call IBS life is not great at all for me just like last night and today i'm feeling bad and not well at all i have to take alot of meds too for my tummy prombles i have :yes: but life doesn't stop be who i'm cause i have learning disablility but i'm smart in my heart but not in my mind but i'm very smart in my music and writting songs too i can't stop and i don't know what to do with all my songs i wrote i have all my songs in book i don't what to do with them they just in my closet :yes: :)

:hug: thank you again mjroxworld :)
 
Hi rockstar. What I appreciate is you sharing your songs here on this forum It's always a blessing to read them :) You may have seen some of mine, as well. I have threads here that feature a few (on the FanZone - "Some of my songs", "In My Shoes, or moccasins?" also "Michael, children, and me". And on Michaelmania "What MJ inspiration can result in!").

I am happy for you that you don't have epilepsy anymore. It is a heck of a thing to deal with throughout a person's entire life. And there's no need to feel sad for my children. We cope day by day, they continue to bless me, and so many others, I homeschool all of them so they are able to learn at their own pace and in their own way. Going around feeling sorry for ourselves is not the answer. Too depressing. We know that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me", and that's where we draw our strength from. We know that Christ is there with us not only in our joys and accomplishments, but especially in our difficulties and sorrows. I will pray for your healing about your stomach/gall problems, ok? Remember, that Jesus has been through more pain than you and I will ever, ever know, so He understands and feels for us when we cry out to Him.

Now, regarding your songs, just keep writing and writing and writing. As long as you have breath in your body, continue making music. Have you set your words to music yet? Do you want help in any part of your music or lyrics? You and I may be able to work together...just a thought.
 
Even though you both (rockstar and mjroxworld, and your daughters) have many problems to overcome you both show what beautiful hearts you have. You are both better than those who mock or torment you, never forget that. These people are ignorant and narrow minded and we should feel sorry for them because it is they who have cold hearts.
Life is hard and you have many difficulties to overcome and yet you both give love to others and have natural talents that give people joy and happiness through your poetry, music, art etc. Never forget your natural God given beauty that is both on the outside and especially on the inside.
God Bless you and take care
Love janey xx
 
thank you janey :hugs: :heart: you're too sweet :yes:

mjroxworld :yes: we can help writting songs together :no: i have don't made no music for my songs i don't have keyband :no: to play on it or record it :no: but my dream is to be come singer :yes: :jump: :yes: but someday it'll come soon when i get will :yes: :cry:

today i'm in bad mood i'm not feeling will my stomach is giving mr hard time i didn't eat very much today cause i'm hurtting alot i just what to :cry: out loud cause it hurt and i get hives too i don't know why?

my goldfish she is so sweet she knows that i'm don't will she keeps eye on me all the time :yes: is true

:yes: i'm very talent in my songs writting :yes: but i don't know what to do with them but someday i'll get my dream come true i still dream my dream to come true everyday for years the same dream :yes: :jump:
 
Janey said:
Even though you both (rockstar and mjroxworld, and your daughters) have many problems to overcome you both show what beautiful hearts you have. You are both better than those who mock or torment you, never forget that. These people are ignorant and narrow minded and we should feel sorry for them because it is they who have cold hearts.
Life is hard and you have many difficulties to overcome and yet you both give love to others and have natural talents that give people joy and happiness through your poetry, music, art etc. Never forget your natural God given beauty that is both on the outside and especially on the inside.
God Bless you and take care
Love janey xx
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thank you, Janey. **goes off to blush**
 
rockstar said:
thank you janey :hugs: :heart: you're too sweet :yes:

mjroxworld :yes: we can help writting songs together :no: i have don't made no music for my songs i don't have keyband :no: to play on it or record it :no: but my dream is to be come singer :yes: :jump: :yes: but someday it'll come soon when i get will :yes: :cry:

today i'm in bad mood i'm not feeling will my stomach is giving mr hard time i didn't eat very much today cause i'm hurtting alot i just what to :cry: out loud cause it hurt and i get hives too i don't know why?

my goldfish she is so sweet she knows that i'm don't will she keeps eye on me all the time :yes: is true

:yes: i'm very talent in my songs writting :yes: but i don't know what to do with them but someday i'll get my dream come true i still dream my dream to come true everyday for years the same dream :yes: :jump:
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rockstar, what is your dream? Is it to sing and perform the songs which you write? What do you think you need to do to make that dream a reality? to make it come true?
 
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mjroxworld said:
rockstar, what is your dream? Is it to sing and perform the songs which you write? What do you think you need to do to make that dream a reality? to make it come true?
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what is your dream?
is to be singer cause music is my number passion in my life and that's what i understand

Is it to sing and perform the songs which you write?
:yes: the songs i write i wish i can perform live and share it with all ppls in here on MJJC :yes:

What do you think you need to do to make that dream a reality?
to work hard on it and try don't to be shy and scary and try don't to think of people who'll make fun of me :yes:

to make it come true?
to make it come true is way to get me on to youtube to show my sing but i'm afraid or try to send email or letter to ellen show or oprah show maybe dr.phil show :wink: mybe the tyra show :)
 
rockstar said:
what is your dream?
is to be singer cause music is my number passion in my life and that's what i understand

Is it to sing and perform the songs which you write?
:yes: the songs i write i wish i can perform live and share it with all ppls in here on MJJC :yes:

What do you think you need to do to make that dream a reality?
to work hard on it and try don't to be shy and scary and try don't to think of people who'll make fun of me :yes:

to make it come true?
to make it come true is way to get me on to youtube to show my sing but i'm afraid or try to send email or letter to ellen show or oprah show maybe dr.phil show :wink: mybe the tyra show :)
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Ok, your afraid. You have fear. Totally understandable. But with fear, nothing is possible. You need to spread your wings and fly, rockstar. please email me privately so we can talk about some things.

lesliesjesus@yahoo.com
 
o.k first i have to ask god for wings :giggle:

but i'll, but my family thinks i'm i can't do it they ask me last week my brother and brother inlaw and my sister, my sister inlaw they told me o.k go ahead and show us you can sing and i say no cause they'll say something mean that's all i get pick on alot from my family :yes: but know they're getting better and understand who i'm i told them i love to sing front of you is not me it's my vioce that is shy :yes: :giggle: :yes: is true :)

i know music is my healing thing i do cause who i'm i just what to get well first and then i'll see what i can do with my vioce i wish i can drink tea but i can't cause i take pills for my tummy problems :yes:
sooh i'll tell MJJC that i'll show them video someday if i get youtube and i'll show them and i maybe cry my heart out cause being here is gift cause everybody is so nices and so cool and friendly too

and all the MJJC here you all my friends cause i don't have friends :yes: :cry:
 
hey
guess what i'm going in hour to place like go out and have food and hot or cold drinks and hung out to meet new friends that's were i'm going out tonight so wish me luck cause i need to meet some friends and i need to get out and enjoy myself who i'm i should be proud that i'm slow but i'm not but i should :)
 
today is a bad day and upset day

everybody think is o.k pick on me as i'm typing i'n cryying so hard that my tear running down like creazy
my sister is so mean to me that my brother was defense me and my sister yelled in my face that i'm not allow to talk or defense myself they do let me
everything is my blame this got to stop
or i'll tell the grovement on them they need to stop it
they're so mean to me, they think is o.k they can do that to me
they blame on me they tell me that i'm wrong they're right this is not far at all
 
Rockstar, I'm so sorry to hear that, why is your sister being like that with you?
 
i know my sister is not very nice to me at all :no: :mat:

she doesn't understand that i'm different in this family :yes: cause i have learning disablility means that i'm slow :yes: and she doesn't understand who i'm :no: :cry:

why in this world of god of name that someone in your life be so mean cause they're different and slow :yes: is not nice and far :cry:

sge doesn't undstand who i'm in this world :yes:
 
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