From one girl to another.........I'm really sorry to hear that. I can only imagine the pain you must be feeling if you have to ask yourself that. Thankfully, life hasn't given me occasions on which to do that, so I cannot sit here and claim that I can even imagine what you are going through. I just hope that your circumstances will turn around. Unfortunately, there are situations in life (the loss of a loved one, terminal disease or just overwhelming circumstances which not only seem, but are hopeless) in which faith and hope become vain, useless words. I also know that real problems need real solutions and usually they come from other people. I hope and pray you will receive all the help you need from the outside and find the tinniest bit of inner strength to fight whatever terrible battles you must overcome.
Not sure how helpful these few words of mine are, but since you put your question here I imagined it was because you expected some sort of reply, even if that didn't necessarily involve a solution. At times people can be terribly disappointed by those close by and seek refuge in online connections, but I am convinced that only with the help of real people, close by can one truly survive and keep on fighting in this big and scary world. I truly hope you will find those few souls (at times all we need is just one other person) who will give you the comfort and the help that you so obviously need. Sorry, but I got no great FB motivational quotes and no sparkly images or any "positivity" talk....I'm not even goin' to send you a virtual hug or use a smiley (which I normally do enjoy) because I feel in this situation they are not only inappropriate, but also completely useless. All of this is basically to tell you that some stranger far, far away saw what you wrote and felt touched by it and wishes you well.