A poem I wrote a couple months ago.
Words for a Page
Struggling, I extract from somewhere within
That which I am not sure I recognize,
With an effort built on uncertainty, but an honest resolve,
I compress harder still, laying my hopes only on the One who supplies,
For where else can I look?
I do wait, and after one long ambitious squeeze,
After much deliberate force has been applied,
This unrelenting pressure has done its fine work.
And so I watch, with an anticipation derived only from faith,
One weak droplet, shy and sullen it appears…and then another, and another,
Making their own way upon the whiteness of you…
the page who had given up on ever being touched.
No, not a spot of creativity did you ever hope
To be delivered by such an unskilled pen holder.
And yet, I have decreed
To exert myself in this insipid manner,
And invade what you are, oh empty sheet of paper,
To catch you unaware, perhaps me even more so,
And the whole while I hesitate,
Confronted by, and shivering in response to,
This cold, ambiguous emptiness
Surrounding me like a foreign, unfriendly place...
The same that so many lucky ones throughout the ages
Consider in the fondest way as a second home,
With its very own hearth all heated aglow.
They have escaped to very few other locales that have been as true
To fill with such a satisfying, inspiring warmth;
The perfect getaway it is, an extension of their own deep selves…
Where they can lift off their troubles and thoughts for a time
And weld them into something new, fresh, and freeing…
Those gifted ones…they who adorn sheet, after sheet, like yourself,
With verse, laid upon verse, embodying such beauty of expression
That has the power to pierce a languid heart in any man, anywhere, in any time.
But for me, here, I feel ill at ease.
I apologize, therefore, to you, parchment so crisp.
You who look back at me with a blank stare
That both convicts and challenges all at once,
That your fate should lie with me and not
One of these true masters of words.
But consider this, and know, my avow is no less heart felt
Than any of the declarations Shakespeare may have poured
Lavishly into any one of his sonnets.
And so I ask, sparse sheet of so many possibilities,
Be that recipient of my unadorned articulations,
Omitted rhyme, and ambushed meter,
So I may yet give you complete, as a humble gift, to a hungry soul.
For this reason alone, page, I have put upon you the task
Of waiting on my slow in coming, awkward words.
Well serve me now, and help to attain my purpose;
And perhaps, there will be one, whose heart
Shall be warmed this day. And I may then
Put my pen to rest for some time to come.