that's why, if i was an atheist, i feel i would need to believe in a God, if for no other reason, there needs to be an exacting punishment for what was done to Michael. and, what's going on on this earth, doesn't seem to be enough. and, it's also why, although it would be easy for me to hate Dr. Murray, i have a hard time with MJ's death being the result of drugs. i'm hellbent on believing it was something deeper..and a conspiracy. maybe as someone of scary faith, like what MJ had..it's hard for me to believe that MJ would subject himself to a cocktail. the overwhelming fear of his belief system would keep him from doing it under any circumstances. some people are offended by the idea of a God that invokes fear..but MJ seemed to thrive on it. and, also..i think that if it was really drugs..it's easy for me to believe his mother would have been an addict, by now, too, since she was so close to him, and essentially went through what he went through. so..a lot doesn't make sense to me...
but i sure do know the media has blood on its hands..and i need for it to suffer an exacting fitting punishment.