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Five months without Michael

A big part of me died with him on June 25th... It's been 5 months and I still feel like it was yesterday. And still hurts the same :( even more because with every each day I miss him more. :( Rest In Peace Angel, I hope you are happy there.
 
That was so touching :cry: :hug:

I can feel your pain. I never had the chance to tell Michael that I love him in person. I once send him a letter in 2003, but how will I know if he ever read it. I never saw/meet Michael and I never could show him support in front of him, only far, far away...

5 months.... everytime when it's the 25th I keep thinking "xy months ago to that time everything was fine, I was excited".. I will never forget that message my friend send me. :cry:

I was so excited and happy that I could finally see Michael and went into debt to buy as many tickets as possible so every chance I had to see Michael, but didn't take because I was too scared to travel alone, would be forgiven... mostly to forgive myself :cry:
I will never forgive myself that I didn't fly to london in march.... :cry:

I miss Michael so much and it tears me apart to never see him again :( :cry:
 
the end of May.... I remember my friend called me and she was like "go lurk on MJJC, i think Mike got his curls back". I was soo excited i drop my spoon in my soup and splattered all over my face. In my eyes and everything. >:|

I loved reading his curls thread.

"If you're thinking about my hair
it don't matter if it's straight or curl"

that was my fav

i miss that day more than any other.
I didn't believe it, i was like "that pic have got to be from dangerous days"...
boi was i excited..... :cry:

URGH i wanna go back GO BACK.
 
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to be honest I'm not.. I'm never sure if I can live on with this pain like in years to come..
I wouldn't mind not waking up one day.
 
stineLOVESmichael said:
to be honest I'm not.. I'm never sure if I can live on with this pain like in years to come..
I wouldn't mind not waking up one day.
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as negative as that may be.... i feel the same way...

the only thing that keeps me going right now is the future to help people.
helping people, dedicating my life for others... atleast that way i can feel him close to me.
 
^^yes you're right. Michael taught us so much. It's our mission to continue on what he started.
but awhhh I JUST WANT HIM BACK :cry: Please, can someone tell me I'v just been dreaming this whole time? is he still here? is this reality? it feels like the worst nightmare
 
:cry: this time 5 month ago is where my life changed for the worse. God I wish he made it :cry:
 
i know that's what i keep saying.
it's a nightmare i can't wake up from.

I told my friend that one morning i'll wake up and it would be back to June 24
then I would call her and tell her we're going to California.

and we would kidnap Mike and his children. I don't care if i have to run a truck through the gates or bodyguards to get to him.

If only i was there. If only i was like one of those people who follows him around...
What couldn've... should've... AHHH If only maybe i didn't sleep that night... if only i didn't start drawing him that day, maybe if i didn't talk about him that day, maybe if i didn't wear that red jacket, maybe if i did my hair differently... things would have been different and he wouldn't have to go away

my head is gonna explode.
My whole family thinks I'm mentally unstable... i have to say I can't really disagree.

that little faith that's left in me... i hope it'll grow bigger, i want things to be the way 5 months ago and before that.
 
i miss him so much ...i know you all do and i know it's been said a million times already ...but deep in my soul that is what my heart screams out ... i feel i die a little every second that passes ... i hope god will allow me to meet him at least in heaven ...as i never had that chance here
 
:cry: I don't understand why HE had to be taken away? He means SO much to people. He had his children. He was about to make his return, thrill the world :( I can't describe it. It hurts so bad. I should of seen him live 4 months ago tomorrow. My only dream crushed. I wish I could wake up on the 26th June, and it had all been a nightmare! Log on to MJJC and see a thread: 25TH JUNE NEW PIX!!1111 :( Woah I miss you Michael!!!I always will.
 
When I read the title I was like...WHAT??
It's been 5 months??

No way....

Time goes by so fast.

Michael I miss you endlessly, this song fits perfectly with how I feel..


"Soledad" by Westlife ( Soledad means loneliness)

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
 
Michael Jackson Moonwalk said:
Don't say goodbye to me,
There is no need to..
Don't say goodbye to me,
Cause' I'm still with you..

Don't say goodbye to me..
Don't shed a tear..
Beacause I'm... still... here

Go light a candle
And say a prayer
Scream out victory
Cause L.O.V.E is still there

Smile at the memories, yeah..
All through the years
Because im still here

Take all I've given you
And keep it inside
And when you feel lonely
I'm right by your side

And when the storm comes
Have no fear
Beacuse Im still here...

So walk with you head up
And be strong
Just remember
that you're not alone

Im smiling down on you my dear
Remember, I'm still here....

L.O.V.E. to all :better:
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This is simply wonderful, sad, yet full of hope.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us...this day.
Beutiful, really beutiful...
 
Dearest Michael,
I hope you've found peace for your beautiful soul. My heart will always hold a special place for you. All I know is that I never can say goodbye. I love you, and thats for all time.
 
Blackcat said:
When I read the title I was like...WHAT??
It's been 5 months??

No way....

Time goes by so fast.

Michael I miss you endlessly, this song fits perfectly with how I feel..


"Soledad" by Westlife ( Soledad means loneliness)

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
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Omg, I always think of Michael when I hear this song..........but haven't been able to listen to it cause it makes my cry so bad.

xxx
 
Tinkerbells poem ....

I think this sums it up 4 many of us....

BEAUTIFUL WORDS ......

THANKU...

I L.O.V.E. U MORE MICHAEL :):wub:
 
Michael..

Why did you have to go!?
Why did you have to leave me all alone?!
I wanted to go with you. I love you!!!

I love you so much. I love you more than my life. I love you more than words could say. Please come back, I miss you so much... so very much. I need you. I just can't go on without you... I can't find my breath. My heart is stopping.. :cry:
 
almost half a year. can you believe that? cause I can't in not one single way..light up the candle people, light up the candle..
 
Why did you have to go?


My world used to be bright

But from day to night

It turned gray



I lost my way

The day you left



The night hears my screams

And my pillow soaks in tears

The only way to see you is in my dreams



I'd never imagined I'd be in so much pain

The future without you scares me

And the memory of the day of your death haunts me



I drown in my own tears

Your absence is killing me

And the days never seem to clear



Why did you have to go?!?!



Will I ever be able to be happy?

Will I ever again have a smile on my face?

I really need your warm embrace



My headaches never end

My eyes are droopy and tired

And poetry is my only friend



I love you and I miss you terribly!
 
5 months already,and it seesm like it was yesterday....to realise that this is only the begining of an endless nightmare...it's all to deep,it's all to scary...it's all so painfull
 
Time stopped for me on June 25th. I have no idea how five months could have gone by? What have I been doing? It's a disorienting feeling! Like I am stuck in a time warp but the rest of the world went ahead without me. I don't know where to go to with my tears. I feel lost en numb. With Michael a part of me died but nobody knows.... :weeping:

Beccabubbles said:
*Billie Jean*

Sending you loadsa love and hugs.......... xxx
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Thank you so much!
 
Days go by,
Days go by,
And each day I want to die,
I never got to say goodbye,
You left me alone without a word,
Here alone in this cruel cruel world,
Alone I stay by your side,
And wish that I was the one who died.
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Time stopped for me on June 25th. I have no idea how five months could have gone by? What have I been doing? It's a disorienting feeling! Like I am stuck in a time warp but the rest of the world went ahead without me. I don't know where to go to with my tears. I feel lost en numb. With Michael a part of me died but nobody knows.... :weeping:



Thank you so much!
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wow ..it's incredible billie jean ... i've been wondering that too .. i got the same feeling .... nothingness ...and then here comes another 25th and i start wondering where was i in the meantime :(
 
ShadowMaster said:
wow ..it's incredible billie jean ... i've been wondering that too .. i got the same feeling .... nothingness ...and then here comes another 25th and i start wondering where was i in the meantime :(
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Yeah. I cannot believe it has been 5 months. Anyone know whats going on in the world? I honestly have no clue.
 
Don't listen to Judith Hill's song until you're in a good place. Seriously. It just sliced me open...and there's this outpouring of stuff, feelings I can't even handle. It literally took my breath away. God, this hurts.
 
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