^^ yeah. I thought part of it was being embarrassed too. I also think MJ had a tendency of conflict avoidance depending on his mood. I think that was just one of those moments where he didn't want to get into it because it was negative. Or he was compartmentalizing. He wasn't going to let that problem in when he was...I believe he was shopping for his kids? I think in order to function on a daily basis, that was somewhat necessary for him. Or maybe your right, social norms weren't really his thing (also understandable).
I too did NOT want to read this because I too thought its kinda shady that folks would put MJ's stuff all out there just to make a bit of money. But I too had to give in for curiosity's sake and there was a blog post by someone (not here) that got me intrigued. So I took the plunge. Now I cant speak on how ethical what they did is, but I know that fans have no problem about people writing books about MJ if the book was 100% positive. And I know that Michael (to my shock) didn't really have intense animosity to those that have written books about him (like in one phone conversation he was referencing in causal terms Latoya's and Randy Taraborrelli book, both of which I detest). But I also believe it depends on the situation and who's writing it (for instance in a twist of irony, they said that they believed that MJ never forgave Jermaine for attempting to write a book during the trial). It, again, lends to the complexity of Michael Jackson. The guy who is desperately protective of his privacy is the same guy who documented everything and wanted to capture his mark in history in as many angles as possible. There is also the factor that yes, unfortunately, he is gone - so I believe for that reason there is merit in their intention to try and counteract all these bogus books people put out about him that try to paint him in an outrageous light. As they said, if MJ was alive, we wouldn't be reading it. But because it has been a free for all since his death, I see how they might want to use their knowledge to try to bring a different perspective on the man in the mist of these outrageous claims.
Plus all the clips I WAS worried about, that had came out in the media about the book, was in no way near as bad as I thought it would be. For instance, Flower and Friend - the way it was written in the book gave me the impression taht MJ was the best boyfriend ever lol. But from what I've read from some articles in this thread, they made it seem like MJ was a two-timing dog and that was definitely NOT what they were getting across. All I saw was MJ dating. Maybe it wasn't a completely committed relationship with Friend (i mean he knew her for a hot minute), so I think if they both understood that, its completely ok for MJ to have seen Flower and test the waters for a bit. I didn't get the sense that he was using either just for sex though, the story about them at Washington DC was a testament to that. I thought that was so romantic.
I think there's a certain way you gotta read stuff like this. After actually reading the book, I DO think that it is accurate to THEIR experience (and memory, and memory can sometimes be faulty), but as they admitted many times in the book, they had no clue what was going on half the time lol. They didn't TALK to MJ all THAT much because they were focusing on doing their jobs and mostly they tried to leave him alone to give him some privacy. They only got one piece of the puzzle that was Michael Jackson. I think the little stories they told were consistent to how I always imagined MJ would be in person. The good and the bad. Plus the MJ that they met had just "recovered" from the trial. And unfortunately, I think that fact explained a LOT of what might be considered 'contradictory' things in the book. Also, a lot of what they told...I don't think was too...I dunno, intrusive? Like I didn't have a bad taste in my mouth reading some of the stuff they talked about because you didn't really get a lot of details. And the private stuff MJ wanted to keep private (minus the financial situation, but I'm pretty sure that whistle was blown anyway due to the trials after his death) - they often didn't even know about.
You got to read this keeping in mind that this is one angle of the whole situation, not the full situation. You gotta read this keeping in mind that they were out of the loop when it came to a lot of important stuff. And you gotta keep in mind that MJ was probably...not in a completely good place at the time. You also gotta keep in mind that MJ is a complex person. Like you or me, he's not the same way ALL the time. He has good days and bad days. Sometimes he's in a mood, sometimes he's not. Sometimes he feels like being nice and letting things go, sometimes he doesn't. Sometimes he's on top of his stuff, sometimes he isn't. But the way I see it, the overarching THEME that I saw in all of these stories was the immense toll that the trial had taken on MJ's spirit. This is just my personal opinion, but I believe MJ had mentally...'checked out' in a lot of ways. Not saying that he was psychologically loopy or lacked motivation to do stuff or that he was completely and utterly depressed to the point of no return. But I think he lacked desire to DEAL with a lot of stuff because he was TIRED of dealing with stuff. I think he wanted to just move on to something positive and he couldn't, because his LIFE wasn't positive really (as the bodyguards said, they didn't envy him evne if at one point they might have, and overall their experience being in MJ's world was 'not fun.') But he tried to force it. He tried to force it to work the way he wanted it to, but in essence, it just wasn't really working. And to me it was ALL relatable and understandable. And I also think that mentally, he lost his sense of control, and not in a psychological way but in a way that had been backed up by his life experiences. The trail was just the final bit of 'proof' that although he THOUGHT he had control, he really didn't. So I think he just kinda went into 'F**k it" mode.
So for instance, if you or I looked at his situation, of course we'd be like 'WAKE UP DO SOMETHING' - kinda like Javon and Bill often wanted to tell him. They went back and forth between "its not his fault" to wanting to shake him and say "why don't you take control?" And I think at one time he DID have control (he wouldn't have gotten to where he was without being extremely on top of things), but I think he got let down by people too many times and it crushed his overall SENSE of control. That feeling when you think you have control of the car but its steering you in the wrong direction. ANd thats happened constantly. And I think partially, mentally, he resigned to that feeling. Also after all the trauma I think he just simply lacked interest in anything that DIDN'T have to do with making his children happy. Thats the sense I got. He was done playing politics. Done handling lawsuits. Done with family drama. Done dealing with the vultures surrounding him. As he said, he wanted to be left alone to just raise his kids and do what was his 'perogative.' But he couldn't. More and more he realized that he couldn't. Like they said, he couldn't go back to the life he lived before the trial.
Therefore, its understandable that he was in a perpetual state of anxiety and frustration. I would be too. I have no clue what it is like living the way he lived for over 40 years of my life. And given the fact that in between 2003 and 2005 he had discovered that those that he THOUGHT were his friends really werent? When he had discovered that clearing his name from the allegations really didn't do anything when it came to changing people's minds about him? When he got more death threats than any other time (most likely)? When his suspicions about people and their intent to harm him were usually proven right? Yeah, I'd be paranoid. I'd be freakin out sometimes (like the incident with the camera at the pool).
Likewise, if from the age of 10 you've been thrusted into this world where you are pretty much filthy rich for MOST of your adult life (honestly, ALL), and you always have people to do things for you - its hard to judge someone and be like 'wtf is he thinking'. All he knows is what he knows. All he has experienced really is him asking for something to happen and people making it happen. But at the SAME TIME (and here is the complexity of who MJ is)...MJ has had an innate understanding and empathy with the outside world. He was compassionate. He WANTS to be a normal person so bad, and he has such a worldly view that he is ABLE to be humble and kind and down-to-earth. But at the same time, he also lacks....(and he's admitted this too) certain social cues and experience when it comes to handling certain situations that you or I would be completely familiar with.
I just want to address Tygger's concerns since those are the first I saw.
I do not believe their version of Michael’s truth because they do not have any logical beginnings or endings.
That's because for them, I don't think there were logical beginnings or endings lol. Like they said, they were just doing what they were told. They didn't know the ends and outs of a lot of it. They didn't know the progression of deals MJ was making. They didn't know if stuff fell through or got postponed or what. They were just going with the flow. ANd even if they got resolution to some of these things, it probably wasn't on their mind and felt it wasn't really worth mentioning. Like they said a lot in the book, sometimes you heard about things, whispers of stuff, and then you don't. They didn't ask questions.
Why could Michael not afford
mobile phones for himself and his mother but, could afford such phone for his employee’s daughter?
Because, based on the book, I don't think MJ had a solid grasp of his accounts at that time. I stress "at that time" because like I said above, MJ was in a much different place. I don't think he wanted to worry about it. That was for his people to handle. So if his people put an account/card on a phone and it maxes out, well to MJ that just means his people didn't use the right account or they just mucked up. Or you can take what the bodyguards had gathered from this and say that MJ really only cared, again just at that time, about tangible money (cash). The money he could hold and had with him. Everything else was kind of other people's problem. Thats why when he was approached about not being able to afford something, of course he's like 'thats an idiotic thing to say' - because he was thinking about all the CASH he has, pretty much falling out of every thing he has on him lol. He didn't know or he kept his distance from (which is what I believe) the intangible financial situation he was in, because it probably made his head hurt, not in the sense of that he couldn't understand it, but in the sense that it was just more stress. He had to deal with people who only cared about money, he had to deal with whatever mess he had been pushed in because of the trial (no doubt) and other people's betrayals (no doubt). So I think if some one said that he couldn't afford something, like a lot of the times in the book, he just pull out a 1000 or so from his pocket and is just like 'here, go get it.' No problem.
Why did Michael teach his daughter to deny him as her father in dangerous situation but, did not teach his daughter to not reveal his identity causing the dangerous situation?
Because Paris was a little kid who didn't know any better? At first of course, she got excited and was like 'daddy daddy' thinking no one would pay attention at the time, probably because he was in disguise and covered up, but once it got out of control, Paris was quick on her feet. And who said MJ had specifically taught her to say that? She could have came up with that slick move on her own to correct her initial mistake. I wouldn't be surprised if she did.
Why did such a well-read, business man who understood his need for increasingly complicated and expensive loans believe that authorizing a credit card meant simply stating I authorize such and such to use this card when the authorizing sticker on the card clearly stated otherwise?
The same reason someone could read all there is to read about how to drive a car and fail to be a natural pro when getting behind the wheel. I always believed that MJ was a 'businessman' in the sense that he was a brilliant strategic thinker. Like he knew when it was the right time to do something and the right time to take a risk and be bold (kinda like his comment in the book when he bought something outrageous and said that in 20 years it'll probably be worth a ton). He also knew what was 'in' and what wasn't and what would get him a profit later. Hence, he bought the ATV catalogue, hence he can run all these companies and non profits, etc etc. But he hires financial advisors for a reason. I don't think he was as skilled with 1) the lingo and 2) the nitty gritty underhanded tactics of a lot of the financial world. Or just the simple things that he often has PEOPLE to do for him, like authorize a credit card lol. I don't see a reason why he would have had to do that himself, tbh. Like when he says that he'll go 'change his number' - I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't know the process of doing that, because HIS process of 'changing his number' is telling the manager/assistant to make sure his number is changed by the end of the day lol.
Though at the same time anything that he would be naturally interested in learning to do himself, like laundry (in the book), he'd know how to do of course. Or driving.
Unfortunately, there are so many more conflicting tales I could list. The truth is usually not this difficult and I do not believe Michael would give his truth to these employees.
Actually, the truth might be that difficult, especially in this case when it is a limited view of the truth. All the conflicting stories I think is simply MJ being a human being. Like, this is the same guy who is ridiculously shy that he'd want to wear sunglasses so that people don't see into his 'soul' and at the same time, enjoys the spotlight and the cameras and is perfectly ok baring his soul in his music. That is technically a contradiction. Or this is the same guy who doesn't want to be seen in public when he's doing normal things, but FAILS to realize (like time and time again, even Steve Harvey talked about it lol) that as long as he's got high water pants, white socks and loafers - he's gonna be recognized. That's a contradiction. It shows him being naive/oblivious just a bit. And speaking of naivety, yes, this is the same guy who is SO paranoid about people using him and being vultures, and yet time and time again is taken advantage of, and time and time again he still TRUSTS people. Often the WRONG people. And thats the biggest contradiction of his LIFE, I think.
But that's life in general I think. That's being human. Sometimes people AREN'T logical all the time. Sometimes things DON'T make a lick of sense in their lives. Just like these bodyguards sticking in this situation for as long as they did while their lights were being cut off and they were away from their families for an undetermined amount of time with little to show for it. If that was any other job (not Michael Jackson), I'd be gone. And I think most would be too if they were really honest. But humans have EMOTIONS. They have ATTACHMENTS. And thats why they stayed. They felt a loyalty to MJ and his kids, even if logically it didn't make any sense that they stayed. Same goes for MJ and his life situation.