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anyone else feeling really really really really sad?

feels wierd thinking back to how happy i was this time last year, and how suddenly that changed :/
 
I am way more than just feeling sad. Ever since that horrible June night of last year when I had gotten the worst news ever at 6:30 pm. I have been suffering from clinical depression ever since. I had spent most days this past year just badly crying over Michael. I am to crying over him now. My heart has remain broken ever since that horrible night when I had heard the horrible news about my beloved Michael. Who was also the L.♥.V.E. of my life. I have been in deep mourning for him ever since. And I know I will be forever. I still just so badly wish I could be with him. Especially since I just totally hate having to live in a world without him in it so much now. The way I see it what is the point of living when you are going to spend the rest of your life just feeling sad, miserable, and depressed. And not be able to feel happiness ever again. I literally felt my happiness as well as other feelings like them being forever torn out of me that horrible night last year. I haven't felt a single ounce of happiness since before I had heard the worst news ever. And I know that the only way I can feel happy again. Is for someone to kill me so I can be where my beloved Michael and my happiness is. :sad: :boohoo:
 
It just hit me like a metal bar in my stomach... this day last year I stayed up for 72 hours with out eating or washing... I don't think I can relive this....
 
Try thinking about it like this.

If you eliminate all time and sense of time. Just completely forget about minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years. There is no such thing as years.

The fact is, MJ died last year on June 25th. It just so happens that its the same date now. If we didnt measure this period of time as a year then nobody would be as upset now.

Just something I was thinking about.....haha
 
If there was no such thing as a year, then this would just be a regular day.
 
its almost as though i dont feel anymore... cant believe everything was so normal just one year ago :(
 
I am. It's like it just hit me. Like wow, tomorrow is the dreadful day. It's been a year already. I just can't believe he's not here :cry:
 
I've been totally miserable for most of the past year, I was beginning to feel slightly better about a month ago, but with this horrid date coming up, last year's anguish has been building up inside me again, I've been feeling this unbearable void in my stomach again... A piece of my heart has been ripped from me forever. Just to think that at this very moment last year, our treasure was still with us. Approximately 18 hours to go...

I miss him. So. Much.

My thoughts go out to all of you, and of course the children.
 
The word sad is just not enough

Exactly a year ago, our Michael was living, dancing, singing, laughing, loving.
And from tomorrow, until the end of time, this sentence can never be written again.
 
Well seeing as you asked the question I will answer you honestly it is the 25th today and I am devastated. I am trying to celebrate Michael's legacy but I am depressed and wish with all my heart we could turn back time.
 
Yes I'm feeling very sad and I wish tomorrow would just skip into Saturday.
 
Yeah, I honestly don't want to hear any music or see any Michael "specials" and nonsense "Untold Stories." I just don't want to be reminded that he really is gone even though he should still be here. Ugh, this over something that could have been avoided, and MJ would still be here. I just want to be in total silence on the anniversary.
 
there is a void in my heart. I feeling like sleeping to ease the feeling of pain of missing him so much.
Its though...and it's the 24th here...:)
 
I dont know how i'm gonna get through this day:no:.......people say that i should be happy & celebrate Michaels legacy......but this is all still so surreal:cry:
 
I do, but that's nothing new. I always feel incredibly sad when thinking of MJ's passing :cry:. It will never make sense to me.
 
in the past couple days,yeah I've been pretty emotional...but that's because it's been a year today...but you know really I've only been set off by "Smile"(Michael's version)
 
I have tried to keep busy, had to turn the car radio off, at one point the tears were streaming and make up running. I just keep thinking how this time a year ago the clock was ticking, and the frustration that he was a fit healty man until that hateful man got his hands on him.
 
Yeah, I am. I bawled my eyes out today. :(
I can't believe it's been a year already. I just want to sit and cry all day. I miss him more and more each day. When I look at the world now, it looks so empty. Sometimes, I think, why? Why even be a part of this whole thing? What is the point?

Yet somehow, Michael brings the best out in me. Even though I'm so terribly sad, I want to still go on with my day for Michael.

At times throughout the day, I just want to crawl into a little ball and cry. I still do, but I won't. He wouldn't want it to be that way. He was always so strong. I want to be just like that someday.

I feel so much for his babies today. My thoughts are with them today and always. They should know that I (and the rest of us here at MJJC) love their daddy, and I love them.

R.I.P. Michael. 1958-Eternity.
 
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