Anna
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Re: any anxiety/depression sufferers here?
I've had anxiety disorder since I was 8 and depression and OCD since I was about 15. Been through quite a few therapists and psychiatrists over the years. Some have helped. Some very much. Been through 5 different antidepressants so far. Currently on Prozac. Great stuff. I don't know why they waited so long to try me on that because it's really helped my anxiety and my mood.
I still have really low days and anxiety problems, but things aren't as bad as they used to be. I used to think I would always feel this way. I used to think about death and the nature of existence every night until about 4am. Driving myself crazy. I couldn't sleep. I would self-harm just to feel something. To feel alive. Sometimes I just wanted to die because I couldn't stand feeling that way anymore. I couldn't see anything but darkness in my future.
But thanks to a lot of help and support, things are getting better. I don't want to die anymore and I no longer self-harm. I can go out by myself without getting panic attacks, which is a big improvement.
Anyway, what I really want to say is stay strong everyone, one day we will look back on these dark days from a much brighter place. Love and hugs to you all. :heart: :huggy:
I've had anxiety disorder since I was 8 and depression and OCD since I was about 15. Been through quite a few therapists and psychiatrists over the years. Some have helped. Some very much. Been through 5 different antidepressants so far. Currently on Prozac. Great stuff. I don't know why they waited so long to try me on that because it's really helped my anxiety and my mood.
I still have really low days and anxiety problems, but things aren't as bad as they used to be. I used to think I would always feel this way. I used to think about death and the nature of existence every night until about 4am. Driving myself crazy. I couldn't sleep. I would self-harm just to feel something. To feel alive. Sometimes I just wanted to die because I couldn't stand feeling that way anymore. I couldn't see anything but darkness in my future.
But thanks to a lot of help and support, things are getting better. I don't want to die anymore and I no longer self-harm. I can go out by myself without getting panic attacks, which is a big improvement.
Anyway, what I really want to say is stay strong everyone, one day we will look back on these dark days from a much brighter place. Love and hugs to you all. :heart: :huggy: