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2010: First year since 1957 without Michael Jackson in the world.

Michael, I am still overwhelmed with grief and my heart is raw from aching as you are gone too soon.

I don't know what to say, words just fail me. I wish you could take a look at my broken heart. It will never mend. The thought I thrive on is that you are alive and happy somewhere on Planet Earth. :weeping:
 
I've been really working hard to hold myself together. But in all honesty, I feel like the pain of losing Michael will never go away. It's been six months. Isn't it supposed to be getting easier to bear even if I can't forget?
 
To be honest with you : I just can't wait for 2009 to end!!

Yes, it's been THAT bad!
 
I start thinking how on earth can the world still BE without him here. How can it continue. We need him here. :cry:

It's like the world should fall over. Idk.
 
The end of the year is always a time of reflection for me and this year has brought me a great personal joy, but losing Michael has been utterly devastating. 6 months on and I want it all to be erased from my mind and for Michael to be somewhere safe with his children and a feeling of normality to return to the fans. When I allow my mind to go back to the summer and think things through I think I still hold this unrealistic hope and feeling that it all didnt actually happen and that sometime, soon, we'll have him back again.

Even now, its still hard to comprehend.
 
wow..I feel really sad now. A new decade without our Michael. :( but I also want this terrible year to end. Michael is not physically here with us anymore but he's still alive, his music, art, his legacy is alive and always will be. Michael is immortal. I feel him everywhere.
 
My workplace is throwing a James Bond New Years Eve party tonight and whilst its not very Bond like I'm wearing a fedora as my own little personal tribute to the man who shaped my life. Just a little statement showing that whilst we lost Michael in 2009 I will be continuing 2010 with him always by my side.
 
the thing is though..I don't really CARE if it's 2009...2010...2020... and so ON.. because ..why does it matter when the pain wont go away anyway? the pain will be just as strong as it was now in 2009.. in 2010 and so on.
my heart will hurt forever
 
2009, the last year michael was on this earth
i cant bare the thought of the upcoming years
i dont want to live in 2010.
 
Michael, in 2 hours this year will end and I don't want it to end and the main reason for this is that this would be the year we last saw you alive. I miss you Michael and I don't want to leave you in the past. I don't want a new decade and the future without you. I wish you could come back.. :weeping: My heart is broken, I'm not sure if I can go on!
 
This year, 2009, it's the last thing we experienced together. I don't want it to be 2010. A new year he doesn't and won't ever know - a new decade without him. I'm not ready for this. God, I feel like in 30 minutes he's going to be lightyears away from us.
 
PrincessMichaela said:
This year, 2009, it's the last thing we experienced together. I don't want it to be 2010. A new year he doesn't and won't ever know - a new decade without him. I'm not ready for this. God, I feel like in 30 minutes he's going to be lightyears away from us.
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Learn to ignore New Years and birthdays if you do not enjoy them. Just think about life like it is one line without any New Year's brakes and other breaks. I already learned it. Just stop time in head and live in 2009 still if you want to.
 
Today is the 1st day of 2010. You know the first thing I did when I heard the words "Happy New Year, 2010"? I cried. It's a difficult thing to think about.. I thought I'd be okay but I just cried on the roof while trying to enjoy the fireworks... I felt empty inside my heart. A new year without Michael...This is just so wrong... :(
 
Last night while watching all the beautiful fireworks I didn't know what to think and how to feel.. Then, in order to hold back my tears, I decided to think it's all for Michael. That everything beautiful, that happens on this earth, is for him. With L.O.V.E.
This morning I listened to Man in the Mirror and stared at a candle and - even though I couldn't help crying - felt more kind of peaceful than in a long, long time. The anxiety I had felt because of the beginning of a new year without Michael was, well maybe not gone, but at least lessening to a more tolerable level. Year 2010, what is it, it's really just a number..something that people have agreed on. We live and breathe just like we did yesterday and we love and miss Michael just like we did yesterday. And Michael is there for us through his music and spirit just like he was yesterday. It still doesn't seem right and it's still so very difficult to accept that he is no longer around, but he definitely is in our hearts and a part of our souls.
Michael, we love you more. :heart: :heart: :heart:
 
i don't know what to say
i mean..it's really horrible..there's no escaping of this HORRIBLE nightmare
i NEED somebody to save me...but we all in this together
& there's no escaping
i know i'm making no sense but i'm trying to speak from the bottom of my dark heart..
i'm totally dead..but there's some part of me...& that part is alive..because i still believe that this is ALL is just a nightmare & someday i'll wake up
i dunno how..i just believe in that..!
i know that you'll think i'm weird or insane but
there's something all of YOU..should know
you should know that..someday we gonna wake up from this
i dunno when but it's true
believe it or not....
it sounds weird but it's true
...
after all i'm just an orphan little child
i'm only 11..i'll be 12 after 5 days
how is 11 years old child supposed to handle all of that !?
i lost TOO MANY people
& now i just wanna die
why GOD is doing this to me !!?
 
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~paris~ said:
i don't know what to say
i mean..it's really horrible..there's no escaping of this HORRIBLE nightmare
i NEED somebody to save me...but we all in this together
& there's no escaping
i know i'm making no sense but i'm trying to speak from the bottom of my dark heart..
i'm totally dead..but there's some part of me...& that part is alive..because i still believe that this is ALL is just a nightmare & someday i'll wake up
i dunno how..i just believe in that..!
i know that you'll think i'm weird or insane but
there's something all of YOU..should know
you should know that..someday we gonna wake up from this
i dunno when but it's true
believe it or not....
it sounds weird but it's true
...
after all i'm just an orphan little child
i'm only 11..i'll be 12 after 5 days
how is 11 years old child supposed to handle all of that !?
i lost TOO MANY people
& now i just wanna die
why GOD is doing this to me !!?
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You're not weird or insane.. I feel the same. It is hard to live with the tragedy everyday. It is very frustrating because I feel helpless and I couldn't have prevented it from happening. It is really sad. I wish it didn't happen to him. I wish that I was the one who died. It all seems like a blur, a nightmare and I just want it to go away.. I am dying inside since his passing. I am torn and I don't Know what to do. I just want to be with him. This pain is unbearable. :weeping:
 
PCR said:
.... omg.... my first 6 months without him around and now this... it's a hard reminder

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its hard to believe that michael still alive in our hearts/membmerys michael just went to heaven to have some peace from the person that have hurt
doctor murrey has something to do with michael going to heaven
ok? who was as world knowning as michael jackson is to us before michael was born?
2010?i feel happy knowing that michael is watching over us from beautiful heaven
we sure will miss michael more each day as the years will go
and michael will just become a memery
 
Michael will only be gone if we forget him. As long as we REMEMBER HIM HE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH US.

I miss you Michael :cry:
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Today is the 1st day of 2010. You know the first thing I did when I heard the words "Happy New Year, 2010"? I cried. It's a difficult thing to think about.. I thought I'd be okay but I just cried on the roof while trying to enjoy the fireworks... I felt empty inside my heart. A new year without Michael...This is just so wrong... :(
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I felt the same thing for my new year. When I first mouthed the happy new year greeting to a friend of mine, I went teary. That moment I really wished I greeted an alive Michael. He wasnt here anymore. I'm teary again with this thought.. :cry:
 
I was so depressed that I didn't even make the countdown to 2010 this year... Because if I do I'll be remembering all the bad things that happened in 2009. On TV they showed the people that passed away that year and among them there was Michael I just cried.. :weeping: I can't believe Michael is not here in 2010...
 
~paris~ said:
i don't know what to say
i mean..it's really horrible..there's no escaping of this HORRIBLE nightmare
i NEED somebody to save me...but we all in this together
& there's no escaping
i know i'm making no sense but i'm trying to speak from the bottom of my dark heart..
i'm totally dead..but there's some part of me...& that part is alive..because i still believe that this is ALL is just a nightmare & someday i'll wake up
i dunno how..i just believe in that..!
i know that you'll think i'm weird or insane but
there's something all of YOU..should know
you should know that..someday we gonna wake up from this
i dunno when but it's true
believe it or not....
it sounds weird but it's true
...
after all i'm just an orphan little child
i'm only 11..i'll be 12 after 5 days
how is 11 years old child supposed to handle all of that !?
i lost TOO MANY people
& now i just wanna die
why GOD is doing this to me !!?
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Paris, you are RIGHT. Just know that. And no, it's not GOD who wants us to be sad for Michael. Also, Michael wouldn't want you to be this sad. He wants you to smile, live your life and then meet him one day. Just stay strong, we all need to stay strong ok?
LOVE
 
I use to think about that these days. Who could imagine that he couldn't live 2010... For moments I still feel like a bad dream. But sadly it's true...

Dammed 2009 June 25th, dammed Michael's lonelyness, dammed people who didn't want supporting Michael when he needed (included family).
 
Maybe this tribute has been posted here, I found it in the Chinese fan club and the lyrics are beautiful.
http://www.mjjcn.com/mjjcnforum/viewthread.php?tid=97045

For Michael...
Let's all make that change,
Find comfort in pain,
Stand in Michael's Name,
And make the world a better place.
Join hands across the Earth,
We can Heal the World,
Do this Michael's way,
And make the world a better place

This aint the end, its the beginning of a brand new day,
Michael, your name lives on as your music play



The world has lost its greatest entertainer of all time,
But more importantly it has lost a kind, caring, wonderful person.
We are all Michaels family, and family stick together.
It's up to us now, to make that change.[/color][/size][/b]
绝世经典 发表于 2009-12-23 22:57
 
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