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very strange feeling when i mentioned him before his death

Diana Hart

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i know you'll probably think i'm CRAZY or LAME but please don't
i know you won't believe it but i swear with my life that it's true.
4 months-2 months before his death.... i was thinking about him and i dunno i felt VERY WEIRD feeling,,everytime i mentioned him i feel strange way , i didn't felt that he gonna die or something etc-
no , it's strange feeling i felt like something was about to happen i swear....
and only before a couple of weeks i felt that something really HORRIBLE is about to happen i was SO scared, i thought i was gonna die
oh i really REALLY WISH IF I DIED AND HE LIVED
WHY NOT ME?! anyways
i told a friend of mine and she said that i'm always think in a ..bad.. way
i tried to tell my mom she was ignoring me..
help me please
i blame my self
i hate myself
it's not my fault isn't it?
and now i hate myself
and blame myself FOR EVERYTHING......
:(
:'(
 
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Don't blame youself for everything, nothing is your fault, you're not a doctor who gave Michael propofol right? ;)
So nothing to blame yourself for, believe me.
It's strange actually how even if many of us have never met him, we all say 'what ifs' relating to our lives and Michael's life.

I remember in 1999, when 1998 was finally over (I was one to think he was gonna die in 1998 with that siggy with the arrow and everything) I said that he would probably never go over 50 years old...
Well, I was right, but I don't feel guilty because I tought of felt or dreamed about something. We couldn't have done anything anyway. I do feel guilty for not being a 'obsessed' fan in his last years, altough it wouldn't have changed anything in his life. It's just me.

But don't blame yourself, it just brings more pain to you, and we have enough pain to deal with, don't add to it, do it for you.
 
......yeah you're right
it's that ..criminal.. murray
oh i was mad
,,
but if anybody knew before ,there must be something to help him
it's hard that i always that he gonna live untill age 100 or 90 and i thought i'm gonna die before him
and when you love some one from the bottom of your heart
there's a relation between him and you.
that's all what i can say

and thanks for commenting
 
I know, I actually never thought that Michael could die before me, even if I'm 28. I don't know why but I thought he couldn't die. *silly me*

Be strong. *hugs*
 
Carinemjj said:
I know, I actually never thought that Michael could die before me, even if I'm 28. I don't know why but I thought he couldn't die. *silly me*

Be strong. *hugs*
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Aw I know, you always felt like he was gonna be here forever didn't you? :cry:
 
*hugs* Don't blame yourself honey, it's not your fault. It feels actually that there's many fans who had 'strange' feeling about TII and everything.. but you can't blame yourself. You would've not been able to do anything to avoid what happened.. so please don't blame yourself.

Keep the faith :huggy:
 
:)
okay thank you guys
yeah me too
i always thought that he gonna live for ever or i'm gonna die before him and i'm only 11
,,
yeah it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard
i wish if it was me
*hugs*
God bless you
 
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