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¨Hello dear Friends and Fans,
I would like to tell you one story that recently happened to me and at end i would appreciate your advice .Probably you wont believe that this happened to me but unfortunately it did and i need to share it with people with good heart as mine.I feel so alone in this world and it hurts so badly.I hope your advice will give me some strength ... So here it is:
I was in relationship with one girls for 1 year and 7 months.We broke up , it didnt work , lots of argues and everything else but ok .I moved on.
Few weeks after break one girl messaged me and told me this : i had to see what so cool and focused man is doing - please note i never talked to that girl and she didnt know me before .It was very strange to me because that girl is one of most beautiful girls i have ever seen .She was one of 4 girls that won contest for most beautiful girl in country.So it give some credit to my statement.
The point is , girls are usually very conceit ( im beautiful im cool and i dont approach guys- guys approach me !) but this girl approached to me in this way. It was strange.
One day she called me if i want to go with her and her friend out and i didnt want to because i had traning in the evening and after that i was really tired and my body was in pain me.Somehow she managed to get me out and i came to club.
I dring 1 bear, than one another and i sayed its enough .I dont drink so few bears can ko! me down.But she oreder 3 bear for me and i had to drink it also. After that we started conversation and she told me they are leaving.I asked what about me i cant drive home now while im drunk.She told me im going with them home :S (first time we were out together)
And so i went home with them and i sleep at her bad that night with her ( we didnt have sex or similar ) just to clear that.
First question is it strange that first time when you came out with somebody you end up sleeping with that person?
She never looked like easy girl or somebody who is doing that regularly but ok.
After that day we seen each other i think almost every day for few days .It was like HEAVEN! I now understand when people say one soul in two bodies.We didnt have to talk we could just look each other in eyes and that would be enought .I tanked God for that and i couldnt believe it happened to me .
BUT!!!!!!
When i went home , I didnt hear from her , she didnt text me , messaged me etc. She was one person when she was with me and other when i was away from her. I couldnt understand that.
So one day i came to her and told her this.She told me that she was in relationship 3 years before me and she cant go in one now again in that way.PLUS I was younger than her ... i am 22 near 23 and she is 24 near 25 ... and that represented big problem to her...
She wanted to have boyfriend that know what he wants who can tell her what is good for her etc....
In my 22 years i have goon almost all over the world ....spent 7 months in Japan ... i practice martial art for 9 years which has strong philosophy etc,...
Every time we talked she couldnt say that i was wrong.... she couldnt prove her statement that this 2 years mean something...
By my talk and the way i look at things and world im way a head of her.
To continue. After i realized something is wrong when im not near her i went to her place and talked with her.
At end she told me she dont want to bond for me and i told her if we wont be in good and right relationship like everybody else do we wont be together.I want things to be done as they should be done with 110% (best they can be ).
So we ended realtionship here first time.
Few days later she messaged me and asked me how em i etc.... In that talk she told me that she is sad , and i asked why ... she told me that she misses me .... She asked me if i want to come and watch movies with her (not directly but it was obvious)...
I didnt want to come and i waited ...
Than Valentines day came . I told myself i like that girl and i want to get her rose and bottle of black wine.
I got that and i want to her place .She hugged me and kissed me and we started again .... (again she started it first )
So both times we stared our relationship she started it first .... not me!
Few days passed and things were again same ... while i was with her she we were in heaven .... when i left she was cold and she didnt want to bond ....
So again we broke and wrote huge message to her and send her ... told here beautiful things etc.... and she responded with small message that im good guys but she is sory she cant give more etc... pure cliché!!!
She borrowed me book and i borrowed her mine .
I red her book she still didnt mine even tho her had 2 times more pages...
I messaged her and told her that i read book and that when she is done with mine to tell me so i can come and pick it up ....
On that she just replied OK
Yesterday was woman's day and i messaged her about that and she just sayed : Thanks
So at end i dont know why is she like that .... in those lets say 2 weeks we spend together , we passed something that people who are more than 1 year together dont go true .....it was just pure MAGIC!!!
She filled me with energy that i never felt before and that is what hurts most! I want that back , i want her back and i know i cant and she isnt good for me ...she is acting like she never had anything with me and oooohhhh yes we had huge things ....
Im asking why would you give somebody something that is most sacred to you and you dont want to bond with that person and you are stopping yourself from being happy ???!?!?!?!?!?
I met her roommate few days ago at street and talked with her.
She told me this : I think she wanted to have sex and you came and she found you attractive and everything else that goes with that. ...... she was the guys using girl (you ) in this relationship .... looks to me like that .....
That is what her roommate told me ....
But i know its more thatn that !!! I KNOW! You just don't act like that to somebody that is not important to you !
My martial art trainer told me .... If two energies bonded once and twice .... be sure that you will meet her again in future ! Its inevitable!
I want to know your thoughts people ? What do you advise me ?
What should i do ?
I have huge heart and it hearts me .....Every time i came to her i brought her a present ... chocolate , wine , rouse or simillar ... never came with empty hands ...even when i went out of town i got her gift and carried it with me ... 3 litros of wine in small bag ... all because i knowed she would appreciate it .
Lots of other girls want to be with me but im not egoistic person or person that would use it in bad way ... Im like Michael .... be kind , be nice , love others!
That is why i said i finally understand MJ .....
Please give me your thoughts !
Much LOVE,
Boris
I would like to tell you one story that recently happened to me and at end i would appreciate your advice .Probably you wont believe that this happened to me but unfortunately it did and i need to share it with people with good heart as mine.I feel so alone in this world and it hurts so badly.I hope your advice will give me some strength ... So here it is:
I was in relationship with one girls for 1 year and 7 months.We broke up , it didnt work , lots of argues and everything else but ok .I moved on.
Few weeks after break one girl messaged me and told me this : i had to see what so cool and focused man is doing - please note i never talked to that girl and she didnt know me before .It was very strange to me because that girl is one of most beautiful girls i have ever seen .She was one of 4 girls that won contest for most beautiful girl in country.So it give some credit to my statement.
The point is , girls are usually very conceit ( im beautiful im cool and i dont approach guys- guys approach me !) but this girl approached to me in this way. It was strange.
One day she called me if i want to go with her and her friend out and i didnt want to because i had traning in the evening and after that i was really tired and my body was in pain me.Somehow she managed to get me out and i came to club.
I dring 1 bear, than one another and i sayed its enough .I dont drink so few bears can ko! me down.But she oreder 3 bear for me and i had to drink it also. After that we started conversation and she told me they are leaving.I asked what about me i cant drive home now while im drunk.She told me im going with them home :S (first time we were out together)
And so i went home with them and i sleep at her bad that night with her ( we didnt have sex or similar ) just to clear that.
First question is it strange that first time when you came out with somebody you end up sleeping with that person?
She never looked like easy girl or somebody who is doing that regularly but ok.
After that day we seen each other i think almost every day for few days .It was like HEAVEN! I now understand when people say one soul in two bodies.We didnt have to talk we could just look each other in eyes and that would be enought .I tanked God for that and i couldnt believe it happened to me .
BUT!!!!!!
When i went home , I didnt hear from her , she didnt text me , messaged me etc. She was one person when she was with me and other when i was away from her. I couldnt understand that.
So one day i came to her and told her this.She told me that she was in relationship 3 years before me and she cant go in one now again in that way.PLUS I was younger than her ... i am 22 near 23 and she is 24 near 25 ... and that represented big problem to her...
She wanted to have boyfriend that know what he wants who can tell her what is good for her etc....
In my 22 years i have goon almost all over the world ....spent 7 months in Japan ... i practice martial art for 9 years which has strong philosophy etc,...
Every time we talked she couldnt say that i was wrong.... she couldnt prove her statement that this 2 years mean something...
By my talk and the way i look at things and world im way a head of her.
To continue. After i realized something is wrong when im not near her i went to her place and talked with her.
At end she told me she dont want to bond for me and i told her if we wont be in good and right relationship like everybody else do we wont be together.I want things to be done as they should be done with 110% (best they can be ).
So we ended realtionship here first time.
Few days later she messaged me and asked me how em i etc.... In that talk she told me that she is sad , and i asked why ... she told me that she misses me .... She asked me if i want to come and watch movies with her (not directly but it was obvious)...
I didnt want to come and i waited ...
Than Valentines day came . I told myself i like that girl and i want to get her rose and bottle of black wine.
I got that and i want to her place .She hugged me and kissed me and we started again .... (again she started it first )
So both times we stared our relationship she started it first .... not me!
Few days passed and things were again same ... while i was with her she we were in heaven .... when i left she was cold and she didnt want to bond ....
So again we broke and wrote huge message to her and send her ... told here beautiful things etc.... and she responded with small message that im good guys but she is sory she cant give more etc... pure cliché!!!
She borrowed me book and i borrowed her mine .
I red her book she still didnt mine even tho her had 2 times more pages...
I messaged her and told her that i read book and that when she is done with mine to tell me so i can come and pick it up ....
On that she just replied OK
Yesterday was woman's day and i messaged her about that and she just sayed : Thanks
So at end i dont know why is she like that .... in those lets say 2 weeks we spend together , we passed something that people who are more than 1 year together dont go true .....it was just pure MAGIC!!!
She filled me with energy that i never felt before and that is what hurts most! I want that back , i want her back and i know i cant and she isnt good for me ...she is acting like she never had anything with me and oooohhhh yes we had huge things ....
Im asking why would you give somebody something that is most sacred to you and you dont want to bond with that person and you are stopping yourself from being happy ???!?!?!?!?!?
I met her roommate few days ago at street and talked with her.
She told me this : I think she wanted to have sex and you came and she found you attractive and everything else that goes with that. ...... she was the guys using girl (you ) in this relationship .... looks to me like that .....
That is what her roommate told me ....
But i know its more thatn that !!! I KNOW! You just don't act like that to somebody that is not important to you !
My martial art trainer told me .... If two energies bonded once and twice .... be sure that you will meet her again in future ! Its inevitable!
I want to know your thoughts people ? What do you advise me ?
What should i do ?
I have huge heart and it hearts me .....Every time i came to her i brought her a present ... chocolate , wine , rouse or simillar ... never came with empty hands ...even when i went out of town i got her gift and carried it with me ... 3 litros of wine in small bag ... all because i knowed she would appreciate it .
Lots of other girls want to be with me but im not egoistic person or person that would use it in bad way ... Im like Michael .... be kind , be nice , love others!
That is why i said i finally understand MJ .....
Please give me your thoughts !
Much LOVE,
Boris
too back in 2011 with a real handsome man :blush: but he was a 'player' and as much as it hurt me ... I won't allow that he or anyone plays with my heart... 