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I'm writing this cause i feel fucked up, and i'd apreciate any kind of good and normal advice. Although...at the same time i highly doubt much advice can be given.
I'll try to make this brief but i am not sure that's gonna happen, i'll do my best though.
My father (60), found happiness with a new wife in 2005, never did i and my brother think he'd find another woman again,he simply didn't seem open for it and not interested. At that time he was a very unhappy and depressed man, but ALWAYS there for me and my brother.
I am not gonna make it too private cause there's no need for that, but my dad has been through enough shit in his first marriage, let's just say that. He studied his ass of till he got an incredibly high degree, was around the age of 30...went to job agencies and they simply told him 'Mister..i'm sorry, but there's no work for you' in other words, my dad was too old. So he then got the most lousy of lousiest jobs you can imagine, no wonder the good man got so depressed. After awhile he quit working and solely focused on being a housefather, when me and my bro got home after school he was always there, for problems and what not..he was always there.
But several years after the divorce between my mom and my father, he met a great woman, and real soon it became his wife, cause they both were 100% sure they were 'made' for eachother. So it was amazing to see how he became a completely different man when he married his second wife. Happy as can be and it looked so good, we never had seen him like this. And hoped the depressive feelings would never return...
He has been on medication for lots of years during his first marriage. He actually still was on medication after his second marriage, but after awhile he starting feeling so good and happy, he decided to completely do away with the meds, basically against doctor's orders. He simply didn't see reason to take them anymore and he said it was junk, it's bad...and i agree. But as of lately, well basically...at the start of this year , it became bad again. And now to a point where i'm really starting to worry.
His life is basically now...sitting home alone with the dog ALOT. Because his wife works, she's off from work on friday and in the weekends, but he's still plenty of times alone. It's kinda hard to explain, but even though my dad would like a nice job....he can't get one, cause they declared him, how do i put this...unsuitable for a job. So he tries to make the best of things.
The thing is, he has plenty of hobbies, like playing guitar or on the piano.listening to music, playing with the dog, watching tv,movies,etc. But he simply doesn't. Basically he doesn't seem to find ANY enjoyment in anything much lately, except for watching some tv. He's afraid of the future and he's seriously considering going to a shrink. But first he's going to a doctor, to see if the doc finds it nessecary to find him a shrink. He also said he needs to be careful about the things he's gonna say to the doctor or shrink, cause he doesn't want to be 'put away' ...god.
My father doesn't really told all this himself, ok..he did. But only after i really honestly asked him how he was doing, he finally opened up. He said he doesn't want to me worry but it's quite bad. The mornings are horrible for him and that's why he gets up at the start of the afternoon...i truly don't believe he's considering...you know...certain attempts, but one can NEVER be 100% certain. Words like 'Afraid of the future, the way it's going now, sometimes i'm afraid of myself..' are very worrysome. But WHAT can i do, i feel so helpless and i want to help him SO goddamn bad.
He told me he's also considering going back to medication, he's really against the usage of them, but if it makes him feel better, i can only agree with him really. I can't imagine the feeling of not finding any enjoyment in the nice and simple things in life. All of this combined IMO is very worrysome.
I just wanted to write this off my chest and hope....to get some advice, some help. I don't want any unpleasant surprises you know, my dad is an incredible man, did so ridiculous much for me and my brother, if someone deserves a truly happy life with not too many worries, it's him .
A friend of mine who i only know on MSN, is around my age too, 28, has also felt very depressed. He told me that he simply stopped thinking so much about how depressed he was, and got rid of those feelings, it then all went away and he's good now. It all sounds so simple, but we are all different people, i can't look inside my father's head...but this can't go on like this. So you see...even though he finally got an amazing and seemingly carefree life, the depression didn't go away. At the end of the day it all doesn't seem to matter at all.
I'll try to make this brief but i am not sure that's gonna happen, i'll do my best though.
My father (60), found happiness with a new wife in 2005, never did i and my brother think he'd find another woman again,he simply didn't seem open for it and not interested. At that time he was a very unhappy and depressed man, but ALWAYS there for me and my brother.
I am not gonna make it too private cause there's no need for that, but my dad has been through enough shit in his first marriage, let's just say that. He studied his ass of till he got an incredibly high degree, was around the age of 30...went to job agencies and they simply told him 'Mister..i'm sorry, but there's no work for you' in other words, my dad was too old. So he then got the most lousy of lousiest jobs you can imagine, no wonder the good man got so depressed. After awhile he quit working and solely focused on being a housefather, when me and my bro got home after school he was always there, for problems and what not..he was always there.
But several years after the divorce between my mom and my father, he met a great woman, and real soon it became his wife, cause they both were 100% sure they were 'made' for eachother. So it was amazing to see how he became a completely different man when he married his second wife. Happy as can be and it looked so good, we never had seen him like this. And hoped the depressive feelings would never return...
He has been on medication for lots of years during his first marriage. He actually still was on medication after his second marriage, but after awhile he starting feeling so good and happy, he decided to completely do away with the meds, basically against doctor's orders. He simply didn't see reason to take them anymore and he said it was junk, it's bad...and i agree. But as of lately, well basically...at the start of this year , it became bad again. And now to a point where i'm really starting to worry.
His life is basically now...sitting home alone with the dog ALOT. Because his wife works, she's off from work on friday and in the weekends, but he's still plenty of times alone. It's kinda hard to explain, but even though my dad would like a nice job....he can't get one, cause they declared him, how do i put this...unsuitable for a job. So he tries to make the best of things.
The thing is, he has plenty of hobbies, like playing guitar or on the piano.listening to music, playing with the dog, watching tv,movies,etc. But he simply doesn't. Basically he doesn't seem to find ANY enjoyment in anything much lately, except for watching some tv. He's afraid of the future and he's seriously considering going to a shrink. But first he's going to a doctor, to see if the doc finds it nessecary to find him a shrink. He also said he needs to be careful about the things he's gonna say to the doctor or shrink, cause he doesn't want to be 'put away' ...god.
My father doesn't really told all this himself, ok..he did. But only after i really honestly asked him how he was doing, he finally opened up. He said he doesn't want to me worry but it's quite bad. The mornings are horrible for him and that's why he gets up at the start of the afternoon...i truly don't believe he's considering...you know...certain attempts, but one can NEVER be 100% certain. Words like 'Afraid of the future, the way it's going now, sometimes i'm afraid of myself..' are very worrysome. But WHAT can i do, i feel so helpless and i want to help him SO goddamn bad.
He told me he's also considering going back to medication, he's really against the usage of them, but if it makes him feel better, i can only agree with him really. I can't imagine the feeling of not finding any enjoyment in the nice and simple things in life. All of this combined IMO is very worrysome.
I just wanted to write this off my chest and hope....to get some advice, some help. I don't want any unpleasant surprises you know, my dad is an incredible man, did so ridiculous much for me and my brother, if someone deserves a truly happy life with not too many worries, it's him .
A friend of mine who i only know on MSN, is around my age too, 28, has also felt very depressed. He told me that he simply stopped thinking so much about how depressed he was, and got rid of those feelings, it then all went away and he's good now. It all sounds so simple, but we are all different people, i can't look inside my father's head...but this can't go on like this. So you see...even though he finally got an amazing and seemingly carefree life, the depression didn't go away. At the end of the day it all doesn't seem to matter at all.
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