D.Electric
Proud Member
Those of you on here who have been private messaging me or have read my post 'thankyou' will know how much Michael means to me and how much i owe to him.
Please make a promise, that none of you will let the world forget Michael. We were blessed to have known such a man and he may not have been perfect, but he was a GOOD man. Im reading posts on here by people saying they are starting to believe tabloids and it breaks my heart. Please dont let the world forget him or the good that he did.
Right now Im in tatters. I used to suffer from insomnia and its back. As i lie here in my bed with my laptop, the loss I feel is so heavy that i am crushed. If you havent read my post 'thankyou', then in summery I tried to end my life a few months ago and Michael saved me. Right now Im feeling like i dont know what Im fighting for. After that night I swore to myself that I would always be strong and I would always be a good person, but whats the point. Michael was strong, he was a good person, but he was taken from us in painful circumstances and surronded by slander and hatred. I can only hope with all my heart he knew what he meant to me and to us. I cry for paris and the boys. Those beautiful children and how they must be feeling. Im sorry this post is all over the place and Im not usually one for public dispays of self pity and grief, but i dont know what to do.
All i can do as i lie here reliving painful memories of my past and mourning the loss of michael is listen to stranger in moscow again and again. I want to sleep, and I want to rest. I know the lows will pass and I can deal with my personal shit, but right now I just need to know that Michael didnt live in vain. Please dont let the world forget him.
Please make a promise, that none of you will let the world forget Michael. We were blessed to have known such a man and he may not have been perfect, but he was a GOOD man. Im reading posts on here by people saying they are starting to believe tabloids and it breaks my heart. Please dont let the world forget him or the good that he did.
Right now Im in tatters. I used to suffer from insomnia and its back. As i lie here in my bed with my laptop, the loss I feel is so heavy that i am crushed. If you havent read my post 'thankyou', then in summery I tried to end my life a few months ago and Michael saved me. Right now Im feeling like i dont know what Im fighting for. After that night I swore to myself that I would always be strong and I would always be a good person, but whats the point. Michael was strong, he was a good person, but he was taken from us in painful circumstances and surronded by slander and hatred. I can only hope with all my heart he knew what he meant to me and to us. I cry for paris and the boys. Those beautiful children and how they must be feeling. Im sorry this post is all over the place and Im not usually one for public dispays of self pity and grief, but i dont know what to do.
All i can do as i lie here reliving painful memories of my past and mourning the loss of michael is listen to stranger in moscow again and again. I want to sleep, and I want to rest. I know the lows will pass and I can deal with my personal shit, but right now I just need to know that Michael didnt live in vain. Please dont let the world forget him.