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I'm not quite sure why I'm posting this to be honest, but I think I just need to get it off my chest
A few years ago I visited an astrologer, who uses birth information to create a birth chart and a progressed chart (the future aspect of it). Anyway I just went to please my mum but can't really say that I placed much belief in this science.
To my suprise the man had everything accurate about me and my childhood. So I sorta changed my mind about certain things. Even now, I'm not sure if I believe fully, but I've chosen to open my mind a bit.
Anyway to get to the point, he was talking about my next few years (I was 20 at the time). And he said that between my years of 23 and 24, I was going to experience my first loss and suffering.
But here's the thing. I knew it couldnt be a friend of mine that was going to die, because it would not have brought about intense suffering. I would have been deeply saddened, but it wouldnt have been so intense. and it wouldnt have shown in the chart as significant.
I dont have much family to be honest. I dont know any older relatives, cousins, Ive never known my grandparents etc. I just have my mother and my sister. So there were only 3 people it could have been: My mother, sister and Michael. These are the only people whose death would have a great impact on me and bring about suffering. Now, my sister also had her chart interpreted at the same time as me, and there was nothing like this in her one. So I knew it couldnt be our mother. Likewise it couldnt have been my sister because there was nothing like that in my mother's chart.
So I knew then and there that he was talking about MJ. I tried to ignore it. But I knew it was him. I dont know how, but I just knew it. I dreaded the thought and tried to dismiss it. after all, there was no way he could die in a few years' time.
But here I am 23 and a half years old and it all proved correct.
and I feel so guilty. I feel like I was warned this would happen and yet I did nothing to stop it. (Although I know there was nothing I could have done from my position as a fan). But I keep thinking, why didnt I pray more for him, every day and beg God to prevent anything like this.
A few years ago I visited an astrologer, who uses birth information to create a birth chart and a progressed chart (the future aspect of it). Anyway I just went to please my mum but can't really say that I placed much belief in this science.
To my suprise the man had everything accurate about me and my childhood. So I sorta changed my mind about certain things. Even now, I'm not sure if I believe fully, but I've chosen to open my mind a bit.
Anyway to get to the point, he was talking about my next few years (I was 20 at the time). And he said that between my years of 23 and 24, I was going to experience my first loss and suffering.
But here's the thing. I knew it couldnt be a friend of mine that was going to die, because it would not have brought about intense suffering. I would have been deeply saddened, but it wouldnt have been so intense. and it wouldnt have shown in the chart as significant.
I dont have much family to be honest. I dont know any older relatives, cousins, Ive never known my grandparents etc. I just have my mother and my sister. So there were only 3 people it could have been: My mother, sister and Michael. These are the only people whose death would have a great impact on me and bring about suffering. Now, my sister also had her chart interpreted at the same time as me, and there was nothing like this in her one. So I knew it couldnt be our mother. Likewise it couldnt have been my sister because there was nothing like that in my mother's chart.
So I knew then and there that he was talking about MJ. I tried to ignore it. But I knew it was him. I dont know how, but I just knew it. I dreaded the thought and tried to dismiss it. after all, there was no way he could die in a few years' time.
But here I am 23 and a half years old and it all proved correct.
and I feel so guilty. I feel like I was warned this would happen and yet I did nothing to stop it. (Although I know there was nothing I could have done from my position as a fan). But I keep thinking, why didnt I pray more for him, every day and beg God to prevent anything like this.