I arrived to this forum just some weeks ago. I was given the link by another MJ friend and I simply love this place. Worried about 3 people here? Well... I might be a newby here and so I don't have the right to say it, but I see people who has been here since 2003. And they are active members. They show us (at least me, a newly-arrived) it is possible to stay together, to share a common interest, to enjoy MJ's amazing legacy.
Yes, sure, many of us arrived to MJ forums late... TOO late for him to see and to be honest, this is something that hurts me, something I sometimes feel ashamed of. I hate to see the date of my arrival to the forums, for that is a constant reminder of me being late. TOO LATE.
But then I thoght of all the time I have known and loved MJ. EVER since I was born he has been around. He was already worldwide famous when I was born. These are the first (almost) 5 months of my life without him around. And yes, now... what? After so many years waiting for his comeback, after the plans to visit London in February 2010, at least to stand outside the O2 listening to a bit of his show, the dream of a new tour, the hope of the new albums, of any films or whatever projects he might have... Yes, yes: for me, he was invincible and I always knew he would be back. For he was Michael Jackson. Period.
So I have learned the love and respect for MJ goes further, stays longer, goes deeper. I understand many people might have discovered MJ recently and they need someone to introduce them to the MJ universe. Well... I think that is our mission. It's us! It's not the media, it's not MTV, it's not Rolling Stones magazine. It is us! So we have to learn form each other, we have to be humble to let other teach us what they know about MJ and then, we have to be generous and passionate to share our love and knowledge of MJ with others.
I hope there are many more to come. Millions!
But despite this, I think the pain we keep inside will remain for a long time. I try, I really try to turn back to my usual mood... but I can't. Not yet. So at this moment, my personal fight is with me, to learn to accept this, and to discover how to incorporate this to my life. So far, I have failed to do so. Then I think MJ wouldn't like us to be this bad... but what else can I do? So it's an everyday fight.
So there is really a lot to do. I just hope I, we will have the strength to do it and the passion to keep it up in time. I have loved him for so long... there are millions who have loved him silently for so long... and there are so many others who have gathered together to share their love for MJ at forums, clubs and others... and MJ loved us so much... that I trust we will make it. In a forum or in the silence of our heart. But we will.
