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Does anyone feel like they want to shut off from the Funeral and pretend it isn't happening?

I went and laid flowers for Michael at the O2 yesterday but now I feel I want to ignore the funeral. I know it's happening but I dont want to accept it and I really dont want to see his coffin as then it will hit home how real this is.

It's not fair.
 
JohnnyJackson said:
Does anyone feel like they want to shut off from the Funeral and pretend it isn't happening?

I went and laid flowers for Michael at the O2 yesterday but now I feel I want to ignore the funeral. I know it's happening but I dont want to accept it and I really dont want to see his coffin as then it will hit home how real this is.

It's not fair.
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I know how you feel.. I was thinking of shutting everything off, and just pretending..its really hitting me right now, I feel like throwing up
 
I will be watching the funeral if i possibly can, but it's going to be so difficult. Hope this gives me some proper closure. Went to the supermarket today, and seeing that pic of MJ on the front of OK! magazine again made me ill :(
 
It still feels like a nightmare. I feel scared of how I will response watching the funeral.. It feels so unreal to talk about Michaels funeral..:no: I feel lost
 
It is very depressing.. Im so sad
I dont think I cant bear it :(
 
I still think that although my head knows he has passed, somehow it has not yet been explained to my heart. I think I need to see the memoral to try and get my heart to see that he has really gone. Accept it fully.
 
O my god!
my little Angel, my love ...
i can't imagine him in there..
i want to die.... really..
 
wish we could escape it but then again I feel I'll need it to accept it all really happened and to come to terms with it however one day.
 
Let's just all get past the funeral somehow. I understand the extreme grief and I feel it too, but Michael would NOT want anyone to die because of him! And you KNOW that!

Some would feel better watching the funeral and getting closure, and for others it's just too painful. Both approaches are ok, depending on what you need. Also, I'm sure this will be re-broadcast later, probably more than once, so when you are ready, if you choose, you can see it?

I plan to watch, but if I get too emotional I will turn OFF the tv. Don't know yet which is best for me.
 
I will watch it for sure, but if you feel you're not up to it then don't force yourself. You can always watch at a later point in time or not at all, whatever feels right for you. And Im sure with me there will be enough members online to pull you through if it's getting to much!
 
JohnnyJackson said:
Does anyone feel like they want to shut off from the Funeral and pretend it isn't happening?

I went and laid flowers for Michael at the O2 yesterday but now I feel I want to ignore the funeral. I know it's happening but I dont want to accept it and I really dont want to see his coffin as then it will hit home how real this is.

It's not fair.
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I know how you feel. This just isn't real. I don't want to accept it, I can't. Everybody keep on saying how the memorial/funeral might make me feel better and begin to accept it, but I know that won't happen. I will die, not accept it. I will be torn apart in grief, but I will still not believe it.

It can't be Michael Jackson's funeral. Just listen to it. It can't be happening. It's not real. After tomorrow I will just be even more dead and empty. I will shut off for real, but I still won't accept it. I can't.
 
I will be traveling to L.A tomorow even though i dont have a ticket and idk how im going to handle even just standing with the rest of the fans and realizing that he is gone.. this aint right....its not... and it makes me so mad... Millions of people will be watching this.. and its like the only questions that will be running thru my mind is why? why michael? he did not deserve this... man.. he didnt he was too gentle for this fucked up world excuse my language.. but this isnt right there is no reason for this man to be dead. this gentle soul of a man to be dead.. i cant even type about this anymore..not right now..
 
I haven't watched any news at all, everything I know is from this forum
I know he's dead, but watching his funeral or anything related to his death is TOO painful for me - I swear the pain drives me out of my mind! I feel like I'm just gonna lose it
and Michael hated it too!...he didn't even like to think about it
so I'm going to do the same thing he did...just live in my own world, detached from anything unpleasant. I mean I know what's happening I don't pretend he's alive(that'd be pure torture to pretend he's ok) but I don't want to see it nope no way
 
One thought on this for you all. There are three very sad, very lovely children left to look after now. Now, more than ever, Michael needs his fans to assist in their lives by showing them just how much their Dad was loved and how special and important he was to you all. Their grief and loss is great ,but I am sure, in the near and distant future knowing that there are people who support them and send their love and affection can only help in this situation.

They will, unfortunately read of the negative things written about Michael, it is up to you, the fans, to be around to make sure they also realize how much positive stuff surronded him aswell and that this is his REAL legacy.

Hope this helps, I know how difficult it is for you, but you all will find a way, with the fullness of time, to live as a memorial to Michael.

Love to all

Sue H
 
yes I do man last night I felt so sick when I saw them take the casket out of the hearse I literally got sick. I felt like i was going to pass out. I never want to watch that memorial again but I do want a copy of it just to have.
 
I cried myself to sleep last night. Seeing his coffin was awful but oddly helped me come to teresm with the fact that he is gone. Sounds really dumb but I kissed the TV at one point, I didn't know how else to say goodbye.
 
bewitched said:
One thought on this for you all. There are three very sad, very lovely children left to look after now. Now, more than ever, Michael needs his fans to assist in their lives by showing them just how much their Dad was loved and how special and important he was to you all. Their grief and loss is great ,but I am sure, in the near and distant future knowing that there are people who support them and send their love and affection can only help in this situation.

They will, unfortunately read of the negative things written about Michael, it is up to you, the fans, to be around to make sure they also realize how much positive stuff surronded him aswell and that this is his REAL legacy.

Hope this helps, I know how difficult it is for you, but you all will find a way, with the fullness of time, to live as a memorial to Michael.

Love to all

Sue H
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yes I did think about that...in a few years they will learn everything their father went through and he's not here to explain it to them anymore. so we as fans we need to show them as much support as we showed to Michael we knew the real Michael and we understood him more than anyone else
 
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