i love this thread.
yes, he opened up my mind. i feel awaken.
I never believed in love before him. ya know? he's the first one I actually said I Love You and actually meant it (minus my Fasa and Masa)
Well i used to be very ignorant. Always thought people were just born "good people" and "bad people" but I learned in order to be a "better person" you have to really try. It's not given, it's earned.
He showed me how a person can be that beautiful. And that one person can make sch an impact on so many lives.
I can honestly say that He brought me closer to God.
People laugh at this.... but When i get mad i would always go "Think MJ... Think MJ". He just makes me Happy. Drowns my anger.
It's been hard trying to be a better person since MJ's Napping... cos now everything regarding to Michael makes me angry/sad but i think it's all worth the pain. At times when i hurt really bad i would say "I shouldn't have ever seen you"... "I wish i never love you" and such but it's all worth it.
my goal in life and concept of life have changed and i would never be this person that i've became if it wasn't for Mike. and I don't hate myself anymore... I like the Me now.
I always thank God... for blessing us with such an amazing person. and being in his life... always thank him because Mike's a beautiful person because God's on his side.
I saw suffering, injustice and all these cruel things. and I learned how much i hurt from what they've done to mike. I could and would never hurt anyone that way. Not with words or actions.
Doing lil things, even such as making someone smile... i feel close to him.
and yes I pray for him, his children, family, and the whole MJ fan base and everyone in the world. Bless them all. and Let our Father in heaven watch over them. I just pray for the whole world instead of just my family and close people now.... so I pray for a veryyyy very long time every night.
& God Bless you, BillieJean84.
much Love,
Hil
and as far as forgiving goes.... i always ask myself... If i was in the same room with Murray.... would i eat him alive or forgive? IDK... I guess i need to learn how to forgive... forgiving is the hardest part. Someday I'll learn, I'm sure.