None of you are alone. Please use this thread to talk to each other, comfort each other and support each other. Together we are Michael's army of love. On this very hard day, please keep talking to us. We will get through this together. :hug:
It has been really bad for me lately anymore. Especially since it is getting closer to that horrible date. My insomnia has been really bad lately. I go up to bed. No matter how tired I might be feeling. And I am up again less than 2 hours later. Last night I didn't go to bed at all. I just don't see what the point is of going to bed. When you are going to be up again in 2 hours. Plus having those strange dreams doesn't help either. And they are not always about Michael. It was just earlier this past week. I started to have this horrible dream about Paris. But thankfully I forced myself awake before it could continue anymore than it did. Which was a good thing because I probably would have killed Oprah in that dream. Because of the horrible way she was treating Paris in that dream. Treating her as if she was some sort of a circus sideshow freak. Since that was the way she had saw her father. So this past month hasn't been too good for me. But sadly it is something I unfortunately have gotten used to it. And with the latest MJ items that is coming out in September I think. Unless it is already out now. I can feel no joy or excitement over it. The only thing I want to get in September is latest Sims 3 expansion pack. I am so going to L.O.V.E. playing with the zombies, werewolves, and the fairies. When I get that expansion pack. And the sad thing is I had felt some joy and excitement over what the next Sims 3 expansion pack was going to be. But yet I can not feel that way towards anything that is MJ related. At one time I did felt joy and excitement over anything that was MJ related. Of course this was back when we still had him.:boohoo I am still suffing from horrible depression over what had happen to him. And it only has gotten worst since I am unable to watch and listen to him like I used to. It's been over 2 years since I last watch him. If I want to watch one of my MJ related videos now. I have to pretend that I am watching him. And I can't even so much as to begin to tell you just how much it sucks having to do that. Especially when I think of all the MJ related stuff that I had either taped, downloaded, and bought in the past 19 years. And I can't watch a single one of them. Especially my beloved HIStory Concerts. That I miss watching more than any of my other MJ related stuff combined. And I haven't listen to him in about 3 months. So I can't even begin to tell you just how badly I miss doing that anymore. I am still learning to live with my depression unfortunately. Since thanks to the people in my life I can't get any help for my depression. I am still wearing all black clothes on most days. Always a black MJ t-shirt and black pants. It shows that I am still in mourning over him. As I always forever will be.:sad: :boohoo
Never saw this before. Love seeing and hearing new little stories, like Michael visiting with a boat in the middle of the night... They were really good friends.Robin Gibb remembers Michael Jackson (Also with Nile Rodgers)
http://youtu.be/t2N-JlT2ZzA
It always comfort me to hear others share their experiences and how they perceived Michael as a warm caring human being. They all seem to say the same this about him. That he was kind, innocent and a giving human being, We know that is true but is so comforting to hear others say it too. Robin Gibbs words were very moving and Nigel also had some very nice things to say, It comforts me to hear and know Michael had people in his life he could confide in and who cared about him..
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I just can't focus on anything, I miss him too much...and I have an exam on Monday :sigh:
Hugs :better:CinnamonGirl...
I have a PLAN.. Study it by 'telling' a Michael poster or piccie 'everything' you need to learn and if you get 'stuck' in your exam on Monday... Just ASK Michael for the answer :cheeky: TRUST me, It'll work... Just BELIEVE and MIRACLES will happen :angel:
HUGE HUGS to everyone in this thread... :better:
Michael would indeed be PROUD of you all...
Hugs :better:CinnamonGirl...
I have a PLAN.. Study it by 'telling' a Michael poster or piccie 'everything' you need to learn and if you get 'stuck' in your exam on Monday... Just ASK Michael for the answer :cheeky: TRUST me, It'll work... Just BELIEVE and MIRACLES will happen :angel:
HUGE HUGS to everyone in this thread... :better:
Michael would indeed be PROUD of you all...
yeah, my exam is on monday too ... :sad:
I can't believe it's been 3 years already
3 years since Michael hasn't been with us...3 years since Michael's last breath. It feels horrible when thinking about it
Sometimes it feels like it just happened. Not 3 years ago now. It irritates me when people say this person is the next Michael or next king of pop. To me he could never be replaced and it seems disrespectful. Maybe I am sensitive especially this time of the year. There could never be another Michael. I still cry easily over anything. When I see pictures and videos of Michael I can laugh and smile. It's just there is a sadness that I feel deep down and I don't think that will go away. I will always miss him and always feel sad that he is gone. When something good happens for him and his legacy now or with his kids I just wish he could be here to see it too.
I'll feel this way forever.... nothing will cure my (our) pain over the loss of Michael. *big sigh*