Grief is a strange thing to comprehend. :-(
I'm no stranger to grief, as lost my mum ( she was 57yrs old) what will be 10yrs ago this coming Dec 09. also my baby grandson was still born at full term last August, ( just 2 wks b4 MJ's 50th b day) :-(
Yet to the confusion of my family and friends I find myself feeling the loss of Michael as seriously and deeply as I did both those sad untimely deaths. :-(
Grief is a lonely road, and only you can travel on it. No one but you really knows the full depth of despair felt at your loss personal to you, :-(