Thanx. I was distraught at the horrible news & haven't eaten in 5days. But I have started eating a little 2day becoz I want to make it 2 the memorials & the funeral dates. I am trying to be strong 4 my family & my kids but I fear I have nothing left to give them. I feel empty, alone, confused & angry at the last weeks unfolding of news reports surrounding MJs passing.
He has been a huge contributor 2 my life 4 almost 30yrs & I attribute alot of who I am to my love 4 him. I am, in great part, who I am becoz of my family, my genes, my frends & my love of all things Michael.
He has been the prodominent Male role model in my life since the age of 13yrs old. In essence Michael has helped shape my WHOLE teenage & adult life. I don't know any different. His beliefs, his charisma, his profection, his professionalism, his sense of humour, his humanitarianism, his love of children & animals, his strengths & weaknesses, his music & dance are all many of the characteristics that I have admired & followed. They are also a huge part of who I am as a sister, aunty, mother & frend. I don't care if people don't understand my feelings becoz it's not my job 2 convince them, I just care about where I go from here. I truely have no idea where 2 go or wot to do next. I am holding on & trying 2 be strong at least till the funeral where we can all say our goodbyes to a gr8 man & Michael can at last rest in peace.
Just wanted 2 put that out there.